lame.
i am extremely miserable.
six am hello.
look close:so empty it hurts.
now that's talent.
the trucks that fill our million pop machines almost every day.
maura's boobs.
and now some real photography.
[subliminal message:i suck]
lost I.
lost II.
lost III.
i am sorry for everything i've ever done.i apologize to myself, to people who i have made listen.i hope you didn't really pay attention to me.i am a waste of time.i have such big dreams.i want to go to NYU, i will probably go to UofD.not to insult said college, but rather to illustrate that i will settle for less than my best dream.i want to do what i love for a living, i will most likely end up teaching english to bratty bastards or playing 'peon' for the rest of my life, boxed in by a plastic cube covered in shitty 'sally forth' comics and post it's to remind me of all my oh-so-very-adult responsibilities.i will end up a bitter old woman, walking around the block for exercise and playing bingo four nights a week for a social life.i want to live in new york, california, tokoyo, beijing, london, glasgow, manzanillo.i want to do something exotic and adventurous, i want to be able to say i did everything on this list.but because i have no expectations of success, i know i will be faced with these opportunities, and i know i will fuck them up.just like i have fucked up many other things in life.so to everyone i have ever known: i am sorry.i am sorry i have messed up, and i am sorry you have had to hold my hand when i am in pain and living regret.i am sorry to every boy i have been entangled in, and i am sorry for liking you too much when all you wanted was something temporary.i'll do my best to better understand how my life works next time i am confronted with such a situation.and i'm sorry if you've felt the same way i have [however rare].i'm sorry something fooled you into thinking i am a worthwhile person.if i could give you back the time you wasted on me, i would.as for my friends, i am sorry for you also.for so many reasons, i can't even list them.but this apology has gotten long enough, so i'll just say i am sorry, to everyone i have ever known.
dad: "i don't give a shit about you."
me: "thank you."
Kpunx00: jenna is...tall, has long legs, a nice rack, a good kisser, hot hair, beautiful eyes, funny, smells good, hot ass, likes great music, and is a toal catch if i've ever met one...she is priceless
Kpunx00: not to mention, you're...
Kpunx00: smart, caring, witty, sarcastic, like the elf and other stupid movies, great at art and photogaphy, and is TOTALLY going somewhere when you graduate, i know it.
Kpunx00: you rock
Kpunx00: on all levels
Kpunx00: so bam.
thank you kris.so much.
and i haven't dreamt
since i stopped sleeping
and i haven't slept
since i met you.
six am hello.
look close:so empty it hurts.
now that's talent.
the trucks that fill our million pop machines almost every day.
maura's boobs.
and now some real photography.
[subliminal message:i suck]
lost I.
lost II.
lost III.
i am sorry for everything i've ever done.i apologize to myself, to people who i have made listen.i hope you didn't really pay attention to me.i am a waste of time.i have such big dreams.i want to go to NYU, i will probably go to UofD.not to insult said college, but rather to illustrate that i will settle for less than my best dream.i want to do what i love for a living, i will most likely end up teaching english to bratty bastards or playing 'peon' for the rest of my life, boxed in by a plastic cube covered in shitty 'sally forth' comics and post it's to remind me of all my oh-so-very-adult responsibilities.i will end up a bitter old woman, walking around the block for exercise and playing bingo four nights a week for a social life.i want to live in new york, california, tokoyo, beijing, london, glasgow, manzanillo.i want to do something exotic and adventurous, i want to be able to say i did everything on this list.but because i have no expectations of success, i know i will be faced with these opportunities, and i know i will fuck them up.just like i have fucked up many other things in life.so to everyone i have ever known: i am sorry.i am sorry i have messed up, and i am sorry you have had to hold my hand when i am in pain and living regret.i am sorry to every boy i have been entangled in, and i am sorry for liking you too much when all you wanted was something temporary.i'll do my best to better understand how my life works next time i am confronted with such a situation.and i'm sorry if you've felt the same way i have [however rare].i'm sorry something fooled you into thinking i am a worthwhile person.if i could give you back the time you wasted on me, i would.as for my friends, i am sorry for you also.for so many reasons, i can't even list them.but this apology has gotten long enough, so i'll just say i am sorry, to everyone i have ever known.
dad: "i don't give a shit about you."
me: "thank you."
Kpunx00: jenna is...tall, has long legs, a nice rack, a good kisser, hot hair, beautiful eyes, funny, smells good, hot ass, likes great music, and is a toal catch if i've ever met one...she is priceless
Kpunx00: not to mention, you're...
Kpunx00: smart, caring, witty, sarcastic, like the elf and other stupid movies, great at art and photogaphy, and is TOTALLY going somewhere when you graduate, i know it.
Kpunx00: you rock
Kpunx00: on all levels
Kpunx00: so bam.
thank you kris.so much.
and i haven't dreamt
since i stopped sleeping
and i haven't slept
since i met you.