ps. so um -- if anyone can figure out the new LJ CUT button, please help.

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it's a shame that i had to search for it. i never marked it down on a calendar or even in my head. it was just a thing that happened. but for -- whatever -- i stumbled upon it ( Read more... )

" but everything happens for reasons that she will never understand
'till she knows that the heart of a women
can never be found in the arms of a man "

_ so apperentlly i've forgotten how to open up. i lack to ability to trust. & i hate it. more than anything, i hate that i'm never going to get over it. all of it. i can't pinpoint one single ( Read more... )

why didn't anyone ever tell me how pathetic i was ? it seems like i was a fucking doormat. & the insults -- i took that ? i really took that ? how fuckin embarrassing, & how fuckin' disgusting of me to even consider the fact that it could have been my fault.

hellfuckingno.

i had no idea what the best was; until now.

1. jean skirts are for summer. leggings are for skiing . there's a reason no ones ever combined the two before. now we know why ( Read more... )

. shake your scene _ tell me again .
{how i wish things would of happened so differently _ you kept insisting & resisting}

but baby ; all apoligies.
whats the use ?

i spent the night at my cousins last night. i couldn't go home, 'cause my heads all confused & i'd rather not be alone with all my thoughts because i really just, don't know anymore ( Read more... )

saturday night was some crazy shit. i went to get hector, brainer, & albert around 7. and oh man, lets not talk about the ride home. i almost cried. but anyway, when we got to my house at 830, there were already people there that i didn't know. so we unload the trunk & yeah, my smirnoffs dissappeared within like, 2 minutes. i was so pissed. but i ( Read more... )

i'm just a little dissapointed in myself. i haven't eaten a real meal in the past three weeks, & it's starting to catch up with me. & before you get all "omg your not fat. you should eat" -- i'm NOT DOiNG iT ON PURPOSE. i've just been so busy lately. i almost fainted in gym today, so i went to the nurse & she gave me some pretzels. the worst part ( Read more... )