running + my day
I went to bed with the intention of waking up for another morning run. I woke up early as planned, but not ready or willing to run. Instead I stretched a little, did some sit-ups and used my weights. I thought that as the day went on I would feel more alive, but so far I'm only feeling more and more fatigued. It's "that time" again, which explains my depressed exhaustion. Maybe it's the heat but I'm not sleeping well most nights... So will I endure for the run tonight? I'm hoping I'll feel better once I'm home. I'm hoping I'll find the willpower to run, because it's only when I'm running that I feel I'm devoting my time soley to me and no one can call me selfish when I'm focused on such things like my form and stride, the angle of my shoulders, the pacing of my breath, breathing through to my heart to the center of me.
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on my lunch break i was in a store looking at some earrings i wanted to buy. they were on sale, but a wire holding the hook of one of the earrings wasn't sitting right, so i dumbly tried to see if i could fix it before deciding to buy them or not. silly me, i broke the wire and fearing karma i mentioned to the store owner what i had done. i offered to buy them still, and she said it was all good (though i could tell she was slightly put off), in the end she gave me the earrings which i intend to fix. i didn't buy anything in the store. there was plenty to buy but nothing i could afford or wanted other than the now broken price reduced earrings. some days i shouldn't leave my familiar spaces. i guess it worked out, but i still feel bad. it's not like me to wander into stores breaking things. oddly though, this is the second thing in the span of a week to be given to me for free in a store. also strange is that they both cost the same thing.
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on my lunch break i was in a store looking at some earrings i wanted to buy. they were on sale, but a wire holding the hook of one of the earrings wasn't sitting right, so i dumbly tried to see if i could fix it before deciding to buy them or not. silly me, i broke the wire and fearing karma i mentioned to the store owner what i had done. i offered to buy them still, and she said it was all good (though i could tell she was slightly put off), in the end she gave me the earrings which i intend to fix. i didn't buy anything in the store. there was plenty to buy but nothing i could afford or wanted other than the now broken price reduced earrings. some days i shouldn't leave my familiar spaces. i guess it worked out, but i still feel bad. it's not like me to wander into stores breaking things. oddly though, this is the second thing in the span of a week to be given to me for free in a store. also strange is that they both cost the same thing.