Of course, because I worked in kids today, I think I'm getting sick as a result of the little rapscallions running around with their dripping noses & their parents who refuse to clean up after them. & this week is possibly the busiest week of my LIFE. FUCK ( Read more... )

After a mostly unpleasant & ridiculously uncomfortable evening, I finally got the "us time" I needed to bring us around to the "let's take a step back" conversation. I think for all intents & purposes, AJ & I are over. Hopefully that'll take the edge off of things & we can just hang out without me getting stressed about every ridiculous thing. I ( Read more... )

For a number of reasons ( Read more... )

Valentine's day is overrated, but V-Day is not. Yay vaginas. Looking forward to my yearly attendance at the Vagina MonologuesYesterday was spent doing utterly normal things -- lots of class, workshop, wearing a pink t-shirt by accident, etc. Jessica & D. Crane made dinner together last night to celebrate, & then invited the Jew Crew over to play ( Read more... )

Fucking poetry major. Fucking creative writing. Fucking having to write a poem for tomorrow about which I thoroughly wracked my brain, pulled quotes from Anne Carson, started writing & fucking *bam*, here comes this poem out of the clear shamayim cacholim, to fuck with me. It's really true that poems have directions of their own, that ( Read more... )

Woke up this morning practically too depressed to get out of bed. Somehow managed to get dressed for work, mulled it over, called in "sick", undressed, got back into bed ( Read more... )

Nothing like walking home in the snow at 12:45am feeling like the world is one big cold slushy muddy brown place that hates you. Just the same: the world is one big cold slushy muddy brown place that hates me ( Read more... )

Nevertheless. D. Crane totally gets it ( Read more... )

kornerpocket925: you seem like you've got something you really want to say but you're holding back majorly

You got it.

Feeling a bit better, although that's not really something I ought to broadcast or bank on. It changes from day to day, or rather evening to evening, depending upon how late I stay up & how much interaction I've had & how drastically my attempt at opening up in tiny incriments fails, etc. Either way, today was fairly productive & this evening was ( Read more... )