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[becauseofghosts]

I don't want to go back to Vancouver.  
being around my friends and family is making me doubt my move out west.  
i was hoping to come to toronto to validate my move but it is only making it tougher to return. 

Comments

[lyndszy]

maybe you had to move to find out how much you really love toronto
maybe it is putting everything into perspective
or maybe i dont know what im saying
just want you to be happy :)

[becauseofghosts]

i think you are right. i thihnk that my move to vancouver cleared up all my anger issues and being back in toronto without the wall of anger really helped me see things in a new light.
that being said, if it helped me that much being here i know that i have to keep trying for a little longer.

[lyndszy]

i hope you stay in vancouver a bit longer
because i think it is helping you figure out what you want to do, and for selfish reasons as id really like to hang out with you more!

[becauseofghosts]

i plan on giving it a shot for one more year minimum. it is important that i'm here... i've actually changed a lot and for the better mostly because i have a lot of time to organize my thoughts.

and dude, don't worry... this weekend is nacho time.

[sassy_red_head]

I think you should move here. There are several reasons.

1-we could hang
2-you would be close to your family, but not suffocatingly so
3-cost of living is lower
umm...pumpkin pie.

[becauseofghosts]

1. dude, we would totally get along.
2. good point
3. pumpkin pie is the best pie in the world. i ate it on 3 different occassions this weekend. hahah, well on my way to gaining my 30 pounds back. hahahahh

Re: I wonder if that will happen to me

[becauseofghosts]

i think that sometimes you don't realize what you have until you are away from it. clearing up all my anger and resentment about toronto while being in vancouver made me see the city in a new light.

that being said, you are right... it has only been 9.5 months and i owe myself giving it another year. it is hard when you see family and frineds though, it makes you wonder why you are putting yourself and others through it all. it is a tough ride, but tough rides make you stronger.

[becauseofghosts]

toronto is a weird place, i left it because i think that i had my heart broken a few too many times and i blamed the city and the 'scenes' creating a wall of anger and frustration.

since moving to vancouver i tore down that wall and dealt with more underlying issues to my anger. forgave others and myself and returning i saw the city in a different light. as you get older friends and family become sooooo much more important. toronto people are more open to be talked to ...if you ever met me i am a very loud and vibrant person and vancouver is much more reserved and introspective. i wish there was a median. ha, ...sorry for the long reply hahha

[korolyeva525]

But Vancouver has the no humidity! And bike lanes! And granola people! And ocean kayaking!

Sadly, I love Toronto too. And if I had very close family and friends there too, I'd find the decision very difficult.

[becauseofghosts]

i think i need to give vancouver more of a chance. its just that i held my cousin's new babies, danced around in circles with my little girl cousins, talked and got drunk with my mates.. i've lost my voice because i think that i've heard it more these past 5 days then the past 5 months. hahah, it all became just so overwhelming

[korolyeva525]

I think Vancouver isn't as awesome to you, just because you don't have that social network there yet. And that's hard, understandably.

Money + being far away from friends are the two biggest reasons I'm not still there ;)