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kayy...well its been a while...&& im feeling like REALLLLLY really emo right now :S...things are jsut like really DUMB...like omg people are so dumb...iunno maybe its just me getting REALLY irritable cuz its getting closer to the worst day EVER!...and like i didnt grieve AT ALL !!! && like omg ughh i hate it...UGHHHH im like practically crying...ughh i need to learn to like handle things better...like i cant seem to make sense of anything, && the one thing i thought i did, i dont anymore...i thought i really liked him but then i dont like my opinion changes EVERY day about *him*...it drives me fucking insane...like seriously at one point i'd do ANYthing for him...and its starting to happen again...like i want to like diet like crazy to lose weight cuz im REALLY self-consicience..and like i just want him to notice me how I WANT him too..kay so i started tanning and i really like it i've gone twice and you could tell after the first time cuz i tan sooooo easy...hahah its soo nice jsut being in the tanning bed...it relieves soo much stress and pain...i jsut wish i could live in one....life would be sooo much easier! i love it i9m gettin back to my natural color not this white shit!...sorry to those of you who are white..hahaha
so YAY and a half so DORK!!!! your gon work with moi et gord :D it shall be soo awesomely FUN!! i cant wait...EEEKERSS...hahaha dont worry jon wont rape you...hes just a reallllllly touchy feely kinda guy and a flamer of course...ahaha ohh mann...