"I am a fucking masochist...."

[beccala]

For a longggggggggggg time.... I've said "I'm an exhibitionist".  Don't cover my eyes, don't restrict my hearing, don't tie me up.  I wanted to be in the spanking bench.  FACING THE DOOR.  "I WANT TO SEE WHO IS WATCHING ME" ... or so I thought.

And then there was last night.  I didn't even make it to the cross before he started wailing on me.  I

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[autumnluv]

That sensation of being totally and completely drained after a scene where I'm a sobbing, blubbering mess and being...well.. good afterwards is why I request to cry when I do have the opportunity to play. I'm glad you're finding things that work well for you even if they scare you as well. :)

[beccala]

Its not that i don't like it - its just hard for me to force myself to do .... I'm learning though.