I'm sitting at my internship listening to some music ( Read more... )

Tonight, as I lay in bed thinking, I realize how much I miss John. I really... Really miss him. I wonder how he's doing, what he's been up to, how Arkansas has treated him, etc.. And I know I'm never going to find out. He's moved on, and has made that painfully obvious. I can't help but feel betrayed and lied to; he always told me what an amazingly ( Read more... )

So, I have turned 21! That is good news. I spent my birthday with Phil, since most of my other friends could not make it for my birthday, and I had a blast. He really tried to make it special, and I appreciate it ( Read more... )

It's been quite awhile since I have posted on here. I suppose it's because so much is going on. I moved to Waltham, and I love the new apartment even though we were without heat and hot water for 3 or 4 days. And besides the fact that Waltham is like the black hole of public transportation. It now takes me nearly 80 minutes to get to school, and ( Read more... )

Well.. We're being evicted from our apartment and have to be out by April 1st. I really have no idea what I'm going to do, or where I'm going to go. Courtney, Kelly and I are supposed to be finding a place, but I'm afraid we won't find a place in time. It's so complicated. Our landlord is kind of being a douche about it. And there's a lot of shit ( Read more... )

I am so tired. I'm sitting here waiting until 1 AM to get here so I can go into the studio to finish my project that's due tomorrow. I wish I hadn't procrastinated. This sucks. I brought everyone that's here at school ice cream though and made some new friends. I have studio 1-7 this morning, then class with a hands on midterm at noon, then another ( Read more... )

It's frustrating to wait for a doctor to call you with results. I'm still waiting impatiently for the biopsy results.. And I'm pretty sure it's nothing, but the mere fact that it COULD be something is kind of scary. Hopefully I will never have to have another colposcopy again. They suck ( Read more... )

I want to make a point here: This is MY journal. I say how I feel when I feel it. If you don't like it, don't read it. I'm not going to censor myself when I'm upset about something, and I'm not going to apologize for any of it ( Read more... )

Work has been a bitch lately. Nothing I do is right, or nothing the other manager does is right, and everyone keeps blaming each other, and it's getting really old real fast. It's rediculous ( Read more... )

So, last entry was pretty morbid, and I was in a really bad state of mind. I did a lot of things that was unhealthy; And I was destroying myself. It took a very scary event for me to wake up and realize that where I was going with my life was not where I wanted to go.. And I knew if I didn't change, and soon, I would probably not be here right now ( Read more... )