I had a really vivid dream last night... or I guess I should say this morning.  It's bad when I can remember most of the dream at 10 o'clock.  It was basically a chase dream.  It started off with someone taking my sister and I had to rescue her out of this prison like house.  We got out safely and hid in this tree house across the road from her ( Read more... )

Horseheads is such a small town.  It's funny to start shit and then see how long it takes to come back around to you in the form of gossip.  This time around it only took one week, which is about the time I thought it would take.  Funny how people think so highly of themselves.  Wonder what will happen next... 

I hate men right now.  I don't trust a single one.  At first it's flattering when someone pursues you and then it just makes you feel dirty and worthless because you realize they don't care about who you are or how you feel about things they just want you to shut your mouth and bend over or open your mouth and insert cock.  I get so weary of ( Read more... )

Today is a terrible day to be at work.  Tuesday was the first day of layoffs.  Everyone keeps gathering in groups in the halls and little out of the way nooks to whisper among each other about who has been let go, who has been offered retirement packages, and who is going to take over afterwards.  It's really a terrible environment.  I can't ( Read more... )

I'm sitting here in my office waiting to meet my boss for my PDR.  What is a PDR?  Just a yearly review on how I'm doing.  Normally I would be a little nervous, but it doesn't even matter this year because I find out next week if I still have a job or if I will be unemployed.  The funny thing it's not even based on my yearly review... it's based on ( Read more... )

When did Horseheads turn into an episode of Melrose Place or Days of Our Lives?  Maybe it's always been this way and I just stepped into a weird story line that I'm trying my best to get written out of... now it's just getting ridiculous.  I know I'm not helping myself out any by the things I have involved myself in, but seriously why bother to ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to say... just maybe that people confuse the Fuck out of me.  Why do we really do what we do?  Why do I let other peoples opinions influence me? (Angry glares and slow head shakes behind his back)  I guess I have to learn to keep the ones that matter close and let all others fall away.  I'm not sure why I keep trying to be ( Read more... )

New Years Eve!  Wow, 2008 was a hell of a year... amazing times and hard times wrapped into one crazy year.  It's weird to look back a year ago and see how the faces have changed... the social dynamics have changed... but the important friends are still there.

Time to move on from the past...

I get a little bit vicious
Thats why you love me
Because ( Read more... )

As far as I can remember I've never seen a thunderstorm in winter.  Something about the lightening with the snow back ground made tonights amazing.  Not a huge booming summer storm but an understated rumble.  I felt like I was in a horror movie as I skated down my ice rink I call a driveway to my little cottage.  [Flash of lightning - steady rain ( Read more... )

Rachels Bridal Shower was last Saturday and you don't know how glad I am that it's over!  I'm glad that everyone enjoyed themselves but I was not made to be a party planner.  Especially for someone else.  I get too stressed out and worried that things are going to go wrong and people are going to hate it.  So no one else ask me to be their maid of ( Read more... )