Panic. It happens.
Sorry if I sort of sound like some prissy bitch, as nothing bugs me more than being thought of that way...but...
I just talked to my best friend since she has moved into the dorms. I have seen her daily for the past year since we have been best friends (cause and product of 'friend drama') and we have been friends since the first day of kindergarden. We've always had constant access to eachother and gone to the same school since we were 4. thats 13 years. Now she has moved (though not too far. just 2 hours from me.) and has roommates and has made friends in college. I'm so afraid that I will lose her have lost her. Boy aside, she is the only one I am close to. We are the only ones with all the same interests, we've known eachother the longest, we are best friends in every since. i am her parent's second daughter. we go everywhere together. i can't even express how important this girl is to me. and she is out of my life and will move on and have new close friends and get a degree and nice job and boyfriend. we have 2 shows in the next 2 months we are going to, and after that i know there will be nothing. i dont have my license yet, and when i do i wont have a car, and she can't afford to drive to visit me all the time. we just wont be friends anymore... i've lost her. to her new little life like the one i dont get too have.
this, compounded on the fact that Boy is leaving so soon. I don't know what to do. I love him more than anything, and I really do trust him, but I am SO TERRIFIED that he will find someone at school. i know he loves me and doesn't want to leave me. i just was raised by my mom, and her "Guys are fucked up assholes" logic. So I've been convinved that he will follow suit. I hate that i could think that of someone that i love and trust. I dont want to be my mom. but it looks like i will be. I'm staying home and going to the same community college as her... what else?
Basically I only have two people in my life, and that seems like its over. I don't make good, solid, long-term friends easily. I'm scared.
Well, there we go. petty, poorly worded rambles on pointless teenage shit.
I just talked to my best friend since she has moved into the dorms. I have seen her daily for the past year since we have been best friends (cause and product of 'friend drama') and we have been friends since the first day of kindergarden. We've always had constant access to eachother and gone to the same school since we were 4. thats 13 years. Now she has moved (though not too far. just 2 hours from me.) and has roommates and has made friends in college. I'm so afraid that I will lose her have lost her. Boy aside, she is the only one I am close to. We are the only ones with all the same interests, we've known eachother the longest, we are best friends in every since. i am her parent's second daughter. we go everywhere together. i can't even express how important this girl is to me. and she is out of my life and will move on and have new close friends and get a degree and nice job and boyfriend. we have 2 shows in the next 2 months we are going to, and after that i know there will be nothing. i dont have my license yet, and when i do i wont have a car, and she can't afford to drive to visit me all the time. we just wont be friends anymore... i've lost her. to her new little life like the one i dont get too have.
this, compounded on the fact that Boy is leaving so soon. I don't know what to do. I love him more than anything, and I really do trust him, but I am SO TERRIFIED that he will find someone at school. i know he loves me and doesn't want to leave me. i just was raised by my mom, and her "Guys are fucked up assholes" logic. So I've been convinved that he will follow suit. I hate that i could think that of someone that i love and trust. I dont want to be my mom. but it looks like i will be. I'm staying home and going to the same community college as her... what else?
Basically I only have two people in my life, and that seems like its over. I don't make good, solid, long-term friends easily. I'm scared.
Well, there we go. petty, poorly worded rambles on pointless teenage shit.