Just updates of me, I suppose.
Made a thing of "family size" brownies late last night and they are gone this morning... XD but there are only three of us... we dominate.
Boy leaves me in less than a week TT.TT
My pills ares still making me cry every day about little things. Boy just will not understand the concept of female hormones, and gets really upset about being a bad boyfriend that always makes me cry T.T He is stupid.
Then I had a breakdown about how all my friends (you know, all three, including him) are going to universities and being productive. while none of them are more than 4 hours away, I am used to seeing them every day and don't know what to do. blah blah blah I have no friends, I'm all alone, I HATE where I live, I have no money, I can't do anything. Going to community college and not moving out = fail sadness and lonely miserablness etc. You've heard it. He felt really bad, then pointed out that several of his friends (all nerdy gamer guys that I have gotten to know pretty well and adore) are in the same boat as me. Cabrillo and work. Stuck at home. Miserable. They came up with a plan to, in about 6 months or so, have enough money to all split the rent and share a really shitty shack in Santa Cruz (where Cabrillo is, my hometown that I want to move back to, rather than commute and live in this shithole).
This news is heaven sent.
You know the stereotype of little girls dreaming about their future husband and white picket fence? I dreamt of being 20 in a hole-in-the-wall little place in Santa Cruz, sharing the filthy beach shack with half a dozen others my age, sitting in the driveway drinking a beer and watching the sunset, still covered with sand from earlier, working on my homework from my Cabrillo class. Yeah. I want this to happen. I scratched my little kid plan ages ago, and it was just pushed in front of me.
Boy leaves me in less than a week TT.TT
My pills ares still making me cry every day about little things. Boy just will not understand the concept of female hormones, and gets really upset about being a bad boyfriend that always makes me cry T.T He is stupid.
Then I had a breakdown about how all my friends (you know, all three, including him) are going to universities and being productive. while none of them are more than 4 hours away, I am used to seeing them every day and don't know what to do. blah blah blah I have no friends, I'm all alone, I HATE where I live, I have no money, I can't do anything. Going to community college and not moving out = fail sadness and lonely miserablness etc. You've heard it. He felt really bad, then pointed out that several of his friends (all nerdy gamer guys that I have gotten to know pretty well and adore) are in the same boat as me. Cabrillo and work. Stuck at home. Miserable. They came up with a plan to, in about 6 months or so, have enough money to all split the rent and share a really shitty shack in Santa Cruz (where Cabrillo is, my hometown that I want to move back to, rather than commute and live in this shithole).
This news is heaven sent.
You know the stereotype of little girls dreaming about their future husband and white picket fence? I dreamt of being 20 in a hole-in-the-wall little place in Santa Cruz, sharing the filthy beach shack with half a dozen others my age, sitting in the driveway drinking a beer and watching the sunset, still covered with sand from earlier, working on my homework from my Cabrillo class. Yeah. I want this to happen. I scratched my little kid plan ages ago, and it was just pushed in front of me.