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[beckycakes]

Life and love are so painful; what happened to it being beautiful and wonderful? I'm pulling away from people too....I'm isolating myself again and trying to just deal with it all myself. I did that when Mom died and I can tell I'm doing it again. I'm so exhausted........No matter where I go or what I do, I'm consumed with the notion of being a

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[sarah_mascara]

I'm sorry, Becky. I wish things were better for you... I wish I could make things better for you. Lots of my friends are having bad times right now. And I've been doing so well lately (which is completely out of character for me) that it makes me wish I could share my feelings with everyone I know.

Just know I'm sending happy thoughts to you and your family.

[beckycakes]

Thank you so much for your support. I'm trying so hard to be strong.

[beckycakes]

I feel like a big pile of shit! :(

[padabee]

I can only imagine how horrible you must feel at the moment, but I hope you won't give up *hugs*

[beckycakes]

Thanks so much! I'm so afraid to feel positive about my life right now. Any kind of affection from Wayne makes me think that we will get through this together but looking at his face tells me I shouldn't. He's in so much pain too right now and he's so uncertain about being married. I hate this so much!!!