im eating a piece of chocolate cake for breakfast. washing it down w/some coffe. yummy! i got used to lying around in bed until 1130 or so. this sucks. hopefully ill get a nap in before my night starts. as for everything else, things are going well. i cant complain. i didnt go out much this weekend, but still managed to have more fun than i ( Read more... )

its sad when you realize that relationships are lost becuase of other people and what they might say or do. ive lost many friends this way. and a lover too. i figure it has to do w/jealousy. what other reason would one have to ruin anothers relationship? pure spite? maybe. im sticking w/jealousy. and girls really have it. it seems like ( Read more... )

ginny and i went to see dreamer. it was pony awesome! then while we were walking down michigan ave to the train, i almost ran right into robin tunney. she gave me that please dont say anything look and i just smiled and looked back at ginny and let her walk by. shes really tiny. but so beautiful. we heart you robin tunney.theres more, but im ( Read more... )

i need a map to get me through things. but not only do i need a map, i need someone to read it for me... to guide me towards the x. i have friends to help out. but it seems as though theyre all telling me to go in different directions. and no ones really willing to help out w/more than a finger point in the right direction anyway. this is in ( Read more... )

im sticking to friends only. if you want me to add you, let me know. i might just do it.

ive been using my blog on myspace instead of lj. its just the killing two birds w/one stone thing. nothing personal lj.

so im just not going to say anything right now. im sorry.

so i suspended any form of contact. i deleted two phone numbers, one email address, and one myspace friend. the next step is to take the things that remind me of it and hide them in a box. i feel so empty. my whole body is cold and achey. ive got something to ease the pain, but its too early still. work will help a little. but im so tired. i ( Read more... )

it ended well. so why dont i feel like its even okay, let alone well? i know itll be alright in the end. it just doesnt feel like it will be right now. and i really dont think that feeling is going anywhere soon. i wish i had a fast foward button.

its been brought to my attention, by someone i care about greatly, that i am a bitch. realizing it is one thing. mending what youve broken is a totally different story. i can only hope what needs to be fixed isnt trashed beyond repair. i need you to help me be a better person, so dont leave just yet. even if i try and push you out the door ( Read more... )