I got exactly what I wanted....

Nov 22, 2004 08:20

So why do I feel worse now than before ( Read more... )

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rainbow7378 November 23 2004, 00:23:51 UTC
Okay, I'm aware that this is probably going to sound insensitive...especially to anyone that doesn't know me and know us (as in you and i together)... but I think after 15 years of being best friends, I'm allowed to be honest...most of the time, probably too honest ( ... )

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beckylukat November 23 2004, 14:20:06 UTC
Things are better now. Not so bad, I am learning to accept the situation. It is not normal by any stretch of the imagination... but I think I am seeing my gratitude as something else, and acting on it. I will find other ways to thank him.. And the fact that I was so incredibly lonely in the strongest sense of the word for so long, control was an issue. I am not moving out. Seeing him interact with my children convinces me that this is the BEST place for them. Q loves both of the girls, and treats them wonderfully, and even if it does not last me living here, it is important that Jordan has this time with her daddy. Of course, watching him with the kids, doesn't really help control "the L word" very much.

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I understand, but I think Shawna is right... heyhonobodyhome November 23 2004, 13:53:56 UTC
Bec,

I am going thru the same thing... Someone from my past has contacted me, I feel like I want to cry, but the only thing that we had was sex. I mean, he never provided for the home and never was sincere, but he actually made me feel like a woman... I just wish that things were left better. All of the emotions that were not expressed prior are biting me in my a$$ now. I know that I can be just friends, but dayamit that I remember how hot things were.

I guess all of us have to choose the correct path to follow. Hopefully you choose the right one. I will not lecture you about falling in love, I have no right to lecture when I do the same thing, I try not to let things get out of control anymore. But make sure that you are ready for the backlash that could follow... exspecially in your sitch. Be careful and think about more than your hormones.. you have 3 other people to think about.. use your head, you are a smart cookie, just don't let him take a bite for a while. ;-)

Love ya Bec.
TARA

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Re: I understand, but I think Shawna is right... beckylukat November 23 2004, 14:39:54 UTC
Yeah. It is that and the loneliness that I felt for so long... If you read the reply to Shawna's comment, you'll get the whole pic....

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Re: I understand, but I think Shawna is right... heyhonobodyhome November 24 2004, 19:58:24 UTC
Hey girl.. I understand... Everything will work out of the best. Just take your time and let things slow to a snail pace.. You are a wonderful person and I know that you are in the best place you can be right now. Tell Q that I said hello. And as for you.. don't be a stranger.

Tara

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