These tears keep streaming down my face, and apathy is all around me. Is this because of some chemical imbalance? Some environmental stressor? I have absolutely no idea. I liked it better when I had clear reason, even if I couldn't change it. I had to leave work today because I couldn't "be present". I am not sure sitting in bed all day is doing me ( Read more... )

It is like I just want to cry, but I can't I have to stay strong, fierce. I have to be the "perfect" one with no feelings or no life. The outsider who can remain objective ( Read more... )

I just need to vent about all the traditional christians out there who adamantly say that committing suicide is a sin and that the person goes to hell. I believe that anyone who is to the point of ending their own life is seriously ill. Do you think that mentally retarded people go to hell? No, of course not, so why should seriously mentally ill ( Read more... )

ok, so life hasn't actually turned out the way i thought it would. At first i thought it would be the easy love me I love u, type of life. Then I grew up, and moved to the I love you and the life u have chosen. But now it is more of the I love u and myself, and that thing down the street and that battery opperated thing in my drawer. o well, life ( Read more... )

Well i realize that everyone faces disappointment in their lives at some time or another, but that doesn't make what I am going through right now any less hurtful. I mean I staked my whole life, well my future anyway, on moving out to California. And now, it just seems like things aren't working out the way I planned. Maybe I just feel bad because ( Read more... )

Ok, So I got in a huge, ridiculous fight with one of my friends, whom I am starting to believe is just a selfish bitch who truly only cares about herself, does not know what being a true friend is, the true meaning of love, and has an inability to love others. I get that I kind of freaked out, but I walked away, I did not perpetuate the argument. I ( Read more... )

I feel so ugly ( Read more... )

I am sick and tired of all your expectations you expect me to live up to. I don't see anything great in your past that you have accomplished. I don't see anything amazing that you have done. As far as I can tell, I am the best thing that happened to you, and you don't recognize this. I see small changes from you, but could this be because you can ( Read more... )

This seems to be the theme song as of late, and yet I am pissed off. Just one of the guys, someone I would hang out with, but not date. Fuck. You know what makes me this way? I'll tell you why I have to be so goddamn tough, it is because I have gone through so much shit in my life that if I was emotional about it, I probably would not be sane today ( Read more... )

I need someone to be there for me ( Read more... )