How could you do this? To me, to her?? This is what the 3rd or so time you've hurt me! I think I really have an idiot sign that says, "Please hurt me, I'll let you, go ahead walk all over me and change my name to doormat!!" You said you're changed now? Well prove it! Or will you just lie about the evidence too?

I dont understand! Damn it. They said you had longer to live damn it!! Its just not time why did this have to happen?!!! You're at peace I know, you had loved ones, I know. The suffering is gone now. May God bless your soul. RIP ( Read more... )

I wanna dress up for Halloween!!! I saw this really hot bee costume at spencers: http://www.spencergifts.com/proddetail.asp?proddept=girlscostumes&sku=612085Read more... )

I've been thinking, I'm really thankful for being blessed with the family and friends I have. Like Steph, who can straighten me out when I'm having a break down, hold my hair back when I'm way too fucked up lol, keep me on my school work and everything in between. Her grandfather considers me a granddaughter too, I've never had a grandfather (mine ( Read more... )

One Art ( Read more... )

I almost died last night ( Read more... )

Everyone's like oh you can't do this, you can't be on your own, life is too hard and you're just a kid. Well reality check, now's the time in my life that I need to grow the fuck up. I can do this on my own, don't judge me b/c I'm young or b/c I've made mistakes before. I need mistakes. I learn from every thing I do, every mistake, every step I ( Read more... )

My mom finally redeemed herself partially. She told me Monday she was sending me $100. At first, I didn't believe her, b/c she always lies and I'm way too trusting to just give up, I believe her time after time. Then like a few months ago, I finally gave up on my mother. It was really hard. But Monday I thought that it was time to let her back in ( Read more... )

I'm so homesick. I don't know what I got myself into. I know I need to grow up and get out on my own but I realized I've been homesick even before I left, I didn't want to leave, but I knew I had to so I just suppressed the feelings. It sucks its like everyone is new, everything is new, and I dont know anything. Steph and I are both emotional right ( Read more... )

I've fucked up big time. Ryan broke up w/ me. I've never really been in this situation and its killing me. I'm so hurt and depressed...I just give up. There's really no point. Why give love hope if its given up on me? I'm continuously being hurt whether I fuck up or someone else does or times when there's no one to blame. This is the best song to ( Read more... )