I swear I'm the biggest fuck up sometimes

I feel like time at college has an expiration date each semester. There comes a point where you want to stay cuz it's college I mean who doesn't really want to stay but then it's like you know you've had enough. Things start getting to ya and it's just really that time to go home and get away from it all. Kinda like milk, you love milk, and you've ( Read more... )

Feeling lost, afraid of things going back to a time when they were dark, fear of rejection. I don't know what I should do. I feel like I'm over reacting but that one word brought up over and over again makes me fear what ruined a lot for me. And I don't want to have to start all over again and again. I'm just tired of it all I want to go home. This

What up dawgs? I had an interesting weekend. First I thought I was gonna go to NY cuz thats what Darnell said and then he changed his mind to next week. I guess his car wasn't ready at the shop or whatever. So booo on him. But Friday it was sooo nice out i had to make up for the lost days during the week. SO I went and shot some hoops out in the ( Read more... )

I'm pissed at life...I'm pissed at my grades...and I think I know why I do shitty all the time. But I bite my tongue cuz I am not gonna start shit with a month left. It just pisses me off sometimes. And I'm really down again right now about life and I can't figure out why. I just am. I'm looking up depressing lyrics and quotes and I feel like shit ( Read more... )

wow some people are flat out rude...i'm in shock. Cuz I'd never do that shit to them but maybe I should start now. Ugh that really pisses me off but anyways. Won a soccer game tonight! finally! 8-0 too! which was awesome so we need 2 more wins to get into the tourney! Umm this weekend was a blast...I should have done a lot of work but instead went ( Read more... )

I came to the tragic realization today that my friends who are a year older then me only have 1 summer left of fun before they are off into the real world. Which means...1 summer to party with them and have a full out blast...which makes me think i only have 2 summers left like that. scary scary thought what the hell will i be doing?? i don't wanna ( Read more... )

well housing issue is now solved. Got Hilltop Suites...which is a little closer to campus, not quite South but we're getting there year by year. Hopefully it will be a fun year. Definately lots of change. But hopefully for the better. I feel so much more relieved now. Thank god. Now I just gotta worry bout classes. I think I can handle this. And ( Read more... )

So I think I'm feeling a bit happier about things. Some loose ends in life are finally being tied it seems which helps a LOT. But it's still a struggle some days. I try to be happy because I hate bringing other people down with me. But I'm getting there. Tomorrow I found out where I'll be living next year. That will be a big stress reliever I hope ( Read more... )

I find it amazing how one minute life as everyone knows it to be is perfectly fine, everyone is happy, no big shakes, yet we all (and anyone can't tell me that they don't) take these happy moments in our life for granted. Then the next thing you know your life can be flipped upside down and changed drastically forever, and you are all left there ( Read more... )