26/10/07 // 9.45pm
Okay so i know this is cheating, haha, but im not writing this on the day im posting it. Im in Driffield at the moment sat on Sarahs couch babysitting, watching 8mile and having a fag waiting for a few hours before she gets back from work. I know i said i wasnt coming through but i guess i was wrong, shows what i know. Dunny gave ( Read more... )

 im so pissed off, i dont know why iv suddenly just got really irratated. Was thinking of going into driff to see sarah and clare, and matty, but i feel like im just getting in his way at the moment so im gonna leave it. ERGHHH  god iv gone from being real happy to real shit in minutes. Gonna try and act happy all the time cos i dont think showing ( Read more... )

I am so bored. Iv reduced myself to leaving comments on myspace profiles. I think im going mental. There isnt anything to do online at the moment and im listening to green day again, i mean usually its fine because mattys online when i am to talk to, but its wednesday and only 2pm so he's still at work :[ and Jay isnt on either which is incredibly ( Read more... )

Hahaha i was being such a little bitch earlier worrieng about matty, i dont know whats wrong with me, im such a fag! im not gonna be a fun wife lets say that. was shacking and then sick i mean oh my god whats wrong with me? i need to get a grip.
Well anyway thats the plan. instead of sitting and panicking about the future and what might happen, im ( Read more... )

SOOO i havent posted in a little while but i have been rather busy. Saturday night mum went out and my little sis was at her dads and so i decided to clean the house naked, drink, smoke in the living room, dance about singing to loud music.. you know the usual shite i get upto alone lmao and then at about 6 kilvo rang me and decided he was coming ( Read more... )

I went to go see sarah today,It took me an hour to walk there, and an hour to walk back so she'd better be fucking grateful! hahaha, she's well at the moment, though has refused to have a drip, but then, so would i, i'd demand morphine, she has appendicitus or however it's spelt, and is having her appendix taken out. We went out for a sneaky fag in ( Read more... )

I found out today my best freind sarah's in hospital, something to do with her appendix i think, so nothing too serious as far as i know but im getting worried anyway, as i always do, about everything. Im so stressed, i hope she's gonna be ok i really do, though she can be a handful she's always been there for me and i swear ill always be there ( Read more... )

 I cant take this pain matty is so intent on causing me. Yes i love him, yes i start to get over him as he asks me to, yes i find someone else and stop hurting but its not good enough as it never is with me. He has to fuck up what me and kilvo have and tell me he loves me and misses me again? I get my hopes up everytime we share affection like it ( Read more... )

I woke up this morning with a fluffy cushion chocking me and the sun burning my eyes, and INSTANTLY wished i was still asleep, as most people do. College sucked as always and my twat of a tutor refuses to let me change courses, yes she loves me, that is the only reason i can think for her stupidity. So now it looks like im stuck with beauty therapy ( Read more... )

So here i am again, and once more i dont know what the fuck im doing and why im doing it to myself. I have got into this habit of falling for men that mess me about, and even though i know its happening i cant stop myself, im an idiot.  So where did it begin? it doesnt seem there is a begining with Matty, feels like its gone on forever, and like it ( Read more... )