Talked to Dumbledore

[behindgreeneyes]

Didn't like what he had to say, but what the hell else is new?

It's the same damn story. I'm alone, always have been, always will be.

Yes, poor Harry.

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[bushed]

You're not alone, Harry.

[behindgreeneyes]

I know. I'm wallowing in self-pity, which I know is very bad for me, but sometimes, it's hard to drag myself out of the pit.

I think I've managed it now.

And...thanks. I know I'm not alone, but hearing it helps. More than I can say.

[bushed]

I'll keep saying it, but you know, one day you're going to wake up and actually believe it. And then I don't want to be seeing any more of these entries.

[behindgreeneyes]

Half of me believes it. The other half keeps yelling at me that I'm pathetic and alone.

So, I'm working on it, and having you guys hit me over the head with reminders will help hammer it home.

[hannah_abb]

Is it even worth it to tell you that you aren't alone?

Probably not.

[behindgreeneyes]

It's always worth it, and I was just indulging in some self-pity. It's one of my vices, I know.

I know I'm not alone, really I do. It's just that self-pity demon likes to sneak up and bite me on the ass, and that's never fun.

I love you, and miss you. How was your night of debauchery?

[hannah_abb]

Night of debauchery was good. I have stories. And something to show you. :)

I miss you too.

[behindgreeneyes]

I can't wait to hear them.

A little bird told me you might be seeing me soon...though it was Pig, and he's notoriously unreliable.

[professorlupin]

You've never been alone Harry... And never will be.

[behindgreeneyes]

Thanks, professor. I know it's true, but sometimes, it doesn't feel that way.

I'm sure you understand. Better than I'd like, no doubt.

[professorlupin]

I think you just let your hopes get a bit too high. Then so did I, so I can't blame you for it a bit.

[behindgreeneyes]

I definitely did. Even though I know better, part of me is still screaming the opposite, that everything Dumbledore said is a lie.

I wish it would stop.

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[luvtbs]

Just flying around looking in windows. Wondering how one becomes so engrossed in the Wizard life. I havn't brought myself to embrase it yet.