oh my gosh. it was cathartic just READING your post. having some issues with my own mother at the moment- story of my life- but this kinda made me look at my situation and realize that the problems i have with her really AREN'T all my fault. i tend to blame myself for a lot of things... but some people are just very difficult to live with.
anyway. i ramble. but just know you're not alone, sweetie!
i finally came to the realization the other morning that i don't care what she says anymore. she was trying to guilt me into thinking that i was a slut, and a terrible daughter, and it just hit me that she was being pissy about things that happened years ago, and was extra pissy because i didn't care that she was being pissy.
and honestly, i'm not a slut. so even if she wants to believe so, she's wrong. and i'm not lazy, and i'm not entirely irresponsible. i'm not perfect, but i don't need anyone to tell me that. i'd much rather feel guilty on my own than have someone tell me i deserve to feel guilty.
I never see your entries... I think it's because my friends page is clogged with community stuff (and the good discussion is getting rather rare these days). I'm sorry things are not going well for you at all and can certainly see why you want to move to Chicago.
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oh my gosh. it was cathartic just READING your post. having some issues with my own mother at the moment- story of my life- but this kinda made me look at my situation and realize that the problems i have with her really AREN'T all my fault. i tend to blame myself for a lot of things... but some people are just very difficult to live with.
anyway. i ramble. but just know you're not alone, sweetie!
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and honestly, i'm not a slut. so even if she wants to believe so, she's wrong. and i'm not lazy, and i'm not entirely irresponsible. i'm not perfect, but i don't need anyone to tell me that. i'd much rather feel guilty on my own than have someone tell me i deserve to feel guilty.
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