turns out that it has nothing to do with my slobbishness...

it's my friends.

god forbid, bekah talks to other men.

have i just become a revolting slob in the last few weeks?

methinks so.

good thing christopher obviously noticed.

if you get the chance to see daughtry in concert, do it.

i went last night, got in for free too (yay for volunteering), and i loved it.

i start my nanny job today.

i thought i started a half hour ago, but it turns out i start at noon.

perfect start to a day that hopefully gets a bit better......

but after i'm done i get to high-tail it to the barn and play with ponies! wooooot!

i get to go riding today! i leave at like 2-ish! wooooot ( Read more... )

just a lot of hard work

and a little bit of hope.

and, of course, with my new boyfriend... who hopefully is just as done with the games as i am.

i hate games.

mom's playing them, chris is playing them, God is playing them.

and i'm stepping up to the plate.

...i'm giddy.

what the hell is wrong with me?

i'm trying so hard to preserve my heart in this whole mess of feelings i have for chris. he tells me i'm amazing, and got out of bed the other day to give me a hug cuz i was stressed... he's absolutely the sweetest, cutest, funniest guy i've ever met.

what the fuck does he see in me?

there's this boy... and i like him a lot... and the other night i had a huge emotional breakdown after vbs... and he held my hand afterwards.

ugh, i hate this part of relationships... i don't know him well enough to let myself just fall for him... cuz i'm totally not ready to have a broken heart again.

but he's soooo cute...

i moved downstairs, which has been an amazing move...

except it's freezing and i've been sick since the first morning i woke up down here.

and i have vbs in a week. i'm singing.

damnit!