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[bekicutsdeepn2u]

so right now i sit in complete silence except for this humming noise from the computer
my entire life has just come to a stop it feels like...my heart feels broken, my mind is at a blank, and everything hurts so bad...more worse then ever..
tonight dylan is like babey i want to fuck kayla! and i am like what?! and we start talking and says all this

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[bekicutsdeepn2u]

thank you
but yet as much as i read that and i think about what i could do it's like i hate myself for loving him but i am so completely in love with him and i never feel so good when i talk to him...sometimes obviously not right now but still i am in love with him and i would do anything for this guy...i just don't know
i am so hurt and so broken
i cheated on him a long time ago i don't know why all of a sudden this is happeneing...nevremind yes i do he told me, it's because now he has a girl that wants him and he won't be alone...i am going to see him on monday and i am so scared about it that it's going to be so horrible...but he bought me a ticket and i can't really say i am not coming...i want to see him though

i just don't fucking know..

[bekicutsdeepn2u]

thank you sweetie
you are greatness
and i am going to make a goal..after this trip i am going to decide what happens

[manda_kitty]

*hugs* i love you, your not allowed to kill yourself the manda will miss you so much!! can i kill him now?

[bekicutsdeepn2u]

nooo we are a lil better now

so yeah

[manda_kitty]

a little? but grr! noone tells the beki its ok to cut herself and gets away with it!