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[belain]

I don't mind working if I'm kept busy constantly. I hate feeling useless. I think I would like an office part-time job or something... something related to computers. I like the jobs I have right now except for the occasional mishap but I think I'm more suited to something else. *shrugs* I'll have to think about it some more

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[thatisqt]

Ooooh.. 20 soon~! I had similar "I'm 20" thoughts as well >__>; - I'm already 20... For me... its not all that different from 19 or 18. Maturity, nani?? ^^;

Ek. At work there's always people you'll love and those you hate. Stay strong. Cranky people get tired and will learn to live with changes soonder or later. Good Luck~ ^^

I think I'm still a kid trying to figure everything out.
Everyone is playing one big jig-saw puzzle...

Rest assured that you aren't the only one with a 'to do list' that is not fulfilled. Mine is so-oo incomplete. *pokes it with a stick*

I've been badgered by relatives as well. *is bricked*

[belain]

Rellies are the light of my life... T____T;; Yeh work was good today except for a random few things.

[daz0r]

I used to be a depressed, suicidal high school student at one point, I did one particularly stupid thing once, but I think these things are all in the past ya know, you don't 'let it go' exactly, but when you learn from it you don't need to dwell on it anymore... I grew precariously into the idea that every little crappy thing that happens to me or that I do, just makes me stronger, smarter, faster, just better... live and learn or run and hide, i think either way you will get better at doing what you do, weakness and wrong I guess are often just things we judge and have no real idea about... anyway how bout i stop crapping on, like I know what I'm talking about, the point was, you ain't exactly alone right now, you're surrounded on all sides by capable friends that can share their own experiences even if you don't have the loving perfect understanding family that people dream of (bah who needs em, I don't have em, and I turned out better than if I would have if I did) and thats a rare thing anyway

[belain]

Np ranting. Rant away ;P

I know I'm surrounded by capable friends but I feel like I'm way behind them or something. Well everything that happens does make you more stronger but also more cautious to not repeat certain things. Maye I'm afraid of taking risks, burdening people and reminding others of past experiences. Maybe I'm embarassed. Losta things I s'ppose.

Anyways... you know me... I should get like a gold medal in overthinking. ^^v

Yeh yeh personality rah looks rah more factors rah. ATM guys are a big suck. Wait, they always sucked.... not friends just everyone else. T___T;;

If you hear something enough, some part of you will begin to believe even if it makes no sense. I'm tired of arguing with people and stuff. Sometimes I jsut want to say OKAY FINE and then go on my merry way.

[belain]

It's like arguing with your mum remember? Sometimes you just dont have the energy to deal and keep arguing your point across...

Hmm... I think I've gone off topic though. T_T;

[eangelz]

We all want to do heaps of things before we can't do it. You still have plenty of time even if you are 20 and OLD as :P But I get what you mean... years just seem to come and go so quickly.. If you really want to do something make the effort to do it. Like one of the brand slogan - Just do it :D

Sometimes you want to take a chance but fear the outcome. Possible rejection. I can't tell even my closest friends certain things about me because I'm afraid.
Lol I can understand that. Well not for me but for one of my friends, they're the same fear of the outcome but at the same time wish so much that close friends would understand once they told them.

I'm so not looking forward to going to VN because I'm of marriageable age...
Hahaha ^^;; All perverts there I tell you! No offence to anyone ofcourse but seriously old fart men just stare at you up and down over there like they've never seen an overseas born asian before. Not just the old ones even the younger ones. Don't worry, just keep to yourself, you'll be fine :D But yes do bring the

[belain]

lol going to vn will be interesting... i'm not going to be equipped for the interrogations about my status and whether i'd be willing to marry some random. any old man pervs on me.... i'll be sure to do something to give them a heart attack then kick em where it hurts and doesn';t work anymmore. *whistles*

20 is old. well not as old as some but still old. ;P