stupid state of mind

Jul 18, 2005 20:48

i currently dont care ( Read more... )

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olivejuicee July 19 2005, 02:04:17 UTC
hi. i love you.
call me anytime if you need something, and even if you don't.
<3

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slutmuphin July 19 2005, 13:32:11 UTC
um, excuse me.

you seem to have given me SEVERAL reasons. you've almost made it a year, kristen. a year is a long time. and 9 days may be the day you say you first lost everything, but why would you just let that win. you've found things to hold on to before and there are those shining moments, and i just think it'd be a shame to lose sight of those now.

i can't talk you out of anything, of course, but i'm expecting you to pull through.

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believe00pixies July 19 2005, 22:23:14 UTC
im just unexpectably falling to pieces. i dont even think its about the 27th anymore.
i dont know.
but im fine.

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believe00pixies July 19 2005, 22:30:22 UTC
but i also really do thank you for everything youve ever done. it all means so much. You mean so much. and im sorry, i guess this all is/was just impulse. almost a year, i know.. and you're right- it is a long time. it'll be the first year in god knows how long.. i know ive made a lot of progress. and i know it'd be a shame to lose sight of the good that ive managed to find.. i dont know why the 27th has such a significant meaning, i guess its just a reminder of all the times ive let myself down in huge events that have changed my life for the worst... events that could have been prevented, ones that wouldnt have lasted countless months if i could have just been able to stand up for myself.. Im sorry, Im just rambling on... i havent seen my therapist for almost 2 weeks, i thought it was such a great thing- but now i wonder.. maybe this week will be the breaking point with her, maybe not. but its now or never, i cant do this anymore.

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