Memorial services are always tough, regardless of whether you share an intimate connection with the grievers. But everything today, as I took the time to reflect (days of silence allow you this privilege), pointed me towards this cummings poem.

)when what hugs stopping earth than silent is
more silent than more than much more is or
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And then it rights itself. If only for five, ten, fifteen minutes.

One thirty am. Time for bed. Shower. Wake up. Class.

No talking. ALL day. I will survive.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LhRl628Vz9ARead more... )

I am tired of chasing people around in circles too, trying to make people happy ( Read more... )

For so many reasons. For the fact that I thought I was getting better but I currently have a really really painful...pain (haha?) right at the end of my sternum and in my lower left back (not my back back but feels like it's deeper or behind there) not to mention my abdomen is hard as a rock and painful and I have right side pain. This sucks. I ( Read more... )

"Riding through has other meanings for me as well. I've learned to ride through hard times, on and off a horse, when I thought about giving up. We all have to learn about riding through, because that's the only way we will arrive at our destination, whatever it may be." --Debbie McDonald, Olympic Medalist ( Read more... )

CK wanted to jump today. I'm almost considering using the rest of the parents' loan and investing in a jump saddle that fits him. We'll have to see. I wouldn't get it until June anyways, and that should give me some time to decide whether it's worth it. My budget would be under 500 though I think I can get a nice used saddle for that price. Meh. ( Read more... )

I apologize for my irritation/bitterness over the last few days. Let me sort this out on my own. I will try not to let it affect anyone else. Thank you muchlies.

Just give me my horse, a body of moving water, the trees, the sun, and a library. Books. I want books. I keep collecting books but I haven't time to read them all. I hate the feeling of running out of time, when people say "Oh but you have all the time in the world."

We don't have all the time in the world, don't you see? This won't last forever. We ( Read more... )