Fuckin heartbroken...

[belissima]

OMG. I was ready to go to bed, laying down watching tv around 1 something when my mom comes in and tells me to hurry up, something is wrong with my cat, princess. I run downstairs, and she's laying on the bathroom floor, crying, not her sweet meow but, a truly desperate cry. Her back legs don't work, her eyes are wide open, she's in terrible pain.

Comments

[ivyblogs]

I think you did the right thing. I had a friend with a cat who had paralyzed back legs and who needed to be hand expressed to pee and that cat was miserable.

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[belissima]

Thank you Ivy! I know it was the right choice, my first thought was she won't be able to walk or use a litter box and the vet said she'd have to stay there, and it would be wrse on her because she'd be away from us and scared. I know it was the most humane thing to do, it was all just such a shock. I'll survive, it's just so sad right now...

[freak_magnet]

just came across this post....I hope you feel no guilt. You did the right thing. I went through this with my beloved cat of 11 years. He was like my sibling, I loved him dearly. He became sick and we spent thousands trying to save him and just seeing him in pain and having to give him huge shots and things was awful. We put him down and it was the hardest experience of my life. I hate to say it but even worse than losing some relatives b/c to me and my family he was a person. I know what you are going through and it'll hurt for a while, just know that she's at peace. I still get upset about mine..your post made me cry. Cats are so loving and it's so sad when you have to say goodbye. Hang in there! Just picture her in perfect health and at peace. You have to really accept that instead of giving her more quantity of life, you gave her quality of life.

[belissima]

Thank you so much! I don't feel guilty about putting her to sleep, I know it was the only option. I just wanted to see her happy and cuddly one more time, I don't know if it was pain or fear, probably both but, seeing her like that is what made it the worst. They were great and gave me all the time I wanted with her. I hope it wasn't too painful for her. It happened pretty quickly so, that makes me feel better. It's just so hard. I grew up with my cats too so, it's hard. You know, I was just thinking today about how I think I'm taking this harder than losing a family member. People can speak, and they can be told it's ok and know what's happening, my mama cat can't, that's what bothers me the most out of it all. I feel crazy making such a big deal about a cat but, that was my little buddy! Thanks for stopping by, you really helped.