there comes a time in person's life where they just cant take crap anymore. consider them too idealistic? or they just dont belong? i love the people that i surround myself with but half of the time all i get are major disappointments. should i just tone down my expectations, as really, its no better anywhere else than it is here. so, i dont know ( Read more... )

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what a weird day... and what a weird future i see lies ahead of me. i realized that after my mom left today i really truly am alone. hopefully somebody substantial comes along soon (keeping my fingers crossed that sandy is right about this up and coming someone) to keep me company ( Read more... )

doing new things. seeing new people. getting my own place to share with friends. ultimately, loving what i am doing outside of work. i am feeling so goddam lucky these days... its a bitter sweet feeling, considering i have to balance the yummy with the yucky... its ok... this way i stay focused and grounded... obviously something that is very ( Read more... )

its so surprisingly ironic how life is so bloody weird... ups, downs, plateaus... its so weird...

god bless the strength i have to just keep going... i really truly am one of the lucky one... phewwwwww!

im soooooooooooo tired. im soooooooo soooooo tired. i want to disappear...

i dont know what i do to deserve every fucking asshole to fucking prance around in my life but i sure as hell am not allowing it any longer ( Read more... )

i am completely procrastinating. i am suppose to be editing th bloody video. but instead im surfing about. artista is at the shop. i miss her. ive spent so much money this weekend. all for my lappy at that. well except one thing. i bought marvins bambi/kabayo art. its lovely although i havent hung it anywhere yet.

here for the next 8 years or ( Read more... )

The energy of other people -- even people you are not particularly fond of -- is vital if you want to create a delightful day today. Even if you feel as though you could make better progress on your own, do not go it alone right now. Going solo does promise a great deal of independence, but it can also bring a great deal of loneliness. Learning ( Read more... )

i went to see sandy yesterday *friday Feb. 16, 2007* and now i am weirded out with what i know... i wonder how much emphasis i should put on what she said but all of it sounds so true. everything that has to do with my romantic life just seems so far out... for the lack of a BETTER term ( Read more... )