I'm so damn weary. I don't know what it is. I just can't shake this exhaustion, this just bone-deep apathy. I'm so complacent these days, and I don't know what it is. I can't see my future. I can't seem to make it past one day at a time ( Read more... )

The title is from a Liz Phair song that I heard on the radio today that made me laugh ( Read more... )

Whoaaa!!! Okay, so yeah. About tonight. I went to dinner with Vicki and Ryaaaaan (Zax)...twas fun...then rode out to CF for CL.....which was...uh. Interesting. CL was good, the service was kinda wonky thought. Bill is such a crazy-head!! He told me (after he pronounced the Hebrew for me)...that he was praying for a nice, handsome, good ( Read more... )

So, yeah. Today was pretty good. Passable, I guess. Woke up, took a shower and went to town...came home and read for a while....took another shower and got ready....went to the banquet tonight. That was actually pretty fun. I sat with Ellen and her daddy...and BJ...*snickers* I shouldn't think that's as funny as I do. But anyways. Got my ( Read more... )

Okay, so today... I'm not quite as pissed off as I was yesterday. I still am, very much ( Read more... )

I love you, but however ( Read more... )

Team Dedication last night. It was okay. I got to see Harv and Betty and Linda and Carole and Bill and Tommy and Alicia and Kenzie and everyone else. 'Twas much fun. Except for one thing. I kinda....am at a loss. So, I have this...acquaintance, we'll call him. Married, with children. And is seriously crossing some lines. And doing it in ( Read more... )

Sitting here, so early in the morning, and feeling a bit lost in thought. Wondering if what I believed myself to be is true...if any of it is real. Or if I'm what seems to be the most obvious of definition. I feel like something struggling.....to find a way, to fit in..and taking the easy way out, because it's easy...knowing the toll it takes on ( Read more... )

Is an art, like everything else. I do it exceptionally well ( Read more... )

So, yeah. Appt with DA was good today. Productive. One of the better sessions, I think. DA was happy. And it was really funny cause he showed up in jeans and a tshirt and I was shocked. Normally it's suit-and-tie-guy ( Read more... )