WC: Hell is other people, hell is yourself - Part 3

[bella_harvest]

White Collar -- Fanfiction

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All recognizable characters are property of Jeff Eastin and USA Network. 
No copyright infringement intended.

Title:  Hell is other people, hell is yourself (Part 3/3)

• Rating: R
• Warnings:  Language, Violence, Sexual Content, No graphic descriptions but strong references to NonCon, Neal/OMC
• Category: Hurt/Comfort,

Comments

[robingal1]

wow.
fucking. wow.

I just cried because of you. I'm wearing my glasses and a mud mask right now.
Do you know how hard it is to read when your tears mix with the green goop on your face and turn into green fog on your glasses?
You can't read through green fog!
And wiping your lenses just smears it around.

Also, now my nose is all stuffy and i have to go to bed.

Your fic is amazing and i hate you.

[bella_harvest]

I'll be sure to add a mud mask disclaimer in the future. Something along the lines of "author cannot be held responsible for any form of mud-mediated myopia caused by reading this story ..."

But thank you for all the compliments. I'm glad to see the story resonated with you. Don't underestimate the power of a good cry!

[iamhere23]

Incredible. I can't even see through all the tears. This was simple and utterly amazing. I loved how the whole thing was in Neal's POV. It made every act, experience, and emotion that much stronger. I love how you never actually described anything that happened to Neal, but everyone knows what happened, even us as readers, we all know how bad it was. And Peter? Peter was amazing as well. His words, his looks, his actions, his reasoning, his guilt, and his sense of right and wrong... so in character, so well written. (Peter crying was just the cherry on the hurty-crying-fic-cake!!)

Simply put: a hurt/comfort masterpiece! Thanks for sharing! :)

[bella_harvest]

Awww, thank you. I'm truly flattered by all the positive feedback. The first person POV was a bit of a gamble and I'm glad it seems to be working for the readers. I'm happy you liked Peter here, too. I love watching him and how he is always so deliciously torn between what his head tells him and what his heart tells him when it comes to Neal. Thanks again for reading and leaving a comment. It's much appreciated.

[neontiger55]

Wow. I'm not really sure where to begin in telling you how incredible this story is. Your writing style is so engrossing and nuanced; I don't tend to read first person POVs in fics, but Neal's voice is pitch perfect here. Your handling of the subject matter, and Neal's experiences is so carefully and wonderfully done; his interactions with the prison nurse especially and the details (like way she constantly checks her watch) just make the whole thing that much more vivid and real. Really amazing work ;)

[bella_harvest]

Thank you. I often stay away from first person POV, too. But when I started writing this it felt right because it created a certain sense of detachment, like Neal is stepping outside himself to observe what is happening. His narrative is almost skimming over the bad experiences, like they don't really affect him. But then he notices all kinds of trivial details (like the watch), so we know that he was painfully aware of all the horrific details as well. Anyway, I'm glad the style seemed to work for you here. Thanks for reading and commenting.

[ext_435496]

I knew the second I saw a new Bella FanFic that I could wait until the next day to read it at a decent hour. So, I nearly fell asleep at work because I just couldn't stop reading. It was an amazing story dislocated wrist and all. Neal so didn't want Peter to know the brutal truth. I selfishly think you should do a epilogue with El visiting Neal at the hospital ... comforting homemade treats at the ready.

[bella_harvest]

I certainly hope your line of work doesn't involve operating heavy machinery or flying airplanes ;)

As for an epilogue, we all know Neal wouldn't end up in a hospital, because (A) Peter wouldn't let that man out of his sight again, (B) the closer Neal stays to Elizabeth and that awesome remodeled kitchen, the better, (C) there's Satchmo, the uncertified therapy dog, and (D) Neal looks too damn comfy on the Burkes' couch (or right in the middle of that plush king size bed, I imagine)!

Thanks for reading and sorry about the missed sleep!

[winterstar95]

This is just brilliance. So wonderfully crafted and achingly sorrowful. Oh lord you know how to write, really you do. It hurts just to think about it, it was painful yet wonderful to read. Thank you for sharing.

[bella_harvest]

Thank you. That's very sweet of you to say. It's very gratifying to see that the story is as emotionally involving to read as it was to write.