IBS Rant
Under the cut is a rant. It's not really got any purpose other than making me feel better. Feel free to ignore
I hate feeling frustrated and upset all the time now. I hate feeling like I can never eat what I want or that anything I eat is going to make me feel like crap.I hate that all sweets make me feel bad and any food in the evening makes me sick. I hate feeling set apart from other people my age because I can't eat whatever I want to. I hate that cheeseburgers and any fast food and doughnuts are off-limits unless I want to feel sick. I hate feeling like I angry and upset and being afraid I'll take it out on my family. I hate feeling like I'm going to cry when I think about this because crying doesn't help and it makes Mom feel bad. I hate that my life is changing so completely and I can't even keep my eating constant. I'm scared that I'm going to be sick all the time and feeling that way is actually part of what does make me sick. I'm scared that living away from home will be too much for my body to adjust to and that I'm going to live the rest of my life eating Garden Burgers and Top Ramen. I'm scared that I don't know what's really wrong with me or why my eating habits had to change so suddenly. I'm scared I won't get enough to eat or the nutrition I need because I'm afraid of feeling ill. I'm scared that nothing is ever going to make me better. I'm scared that anything new in my life is going to make me sick. I'm scared and angry and upset, and I don't know what to do about it..
Stay smart people
Bella
I hate feeling frustrated and upset all the time now. I hate feeling like I can never eat what I want or that anything I eat is going to make me feel like crap.I hate that all sweets make me feel bad and any food in the evening makes me sick. I hate feeling set apart from other people my age because I can't eat whatever I want to. I hate that cheeseburgers and any fast food and doughnuts are off-limits unless I want to feel sick. I hate feeling like I angry and upset and being afraid I'll take it out on my family. I hate feeling like I'm going to cry when I think about this because crying doesn't help and it makes Mom feel bad. I hate that my life is changing so completely and I can't even keep my eating constant. I'm scared that I'm going to be sick all the time and feeling that way is actually part of what does make me sick. I'm scared that living away from home will be too much for my body to adjust to and that I'm going to live the rest of my life eating Garden Burgers and Top Ramen. I'm scared that I don't know what's really wrong with me or why my eating habits had to change so suddenly. I'm scared I won't get enough to eat or the nutrition I need because I'm afraid of feeling ill. I'm scared that nothing is ever going to make me better. I'm scared that anything new in my life is going to make me sick. I'm scared and angry and upset, and I don't know what to do about it..
Stay smart people
Bella