I want to be successful at something I enjoy doing.
I suppose if I was successful at something, anything, I might enjoy doing it...

he describes me to a tee when explaining what he is looking for in a girl. my likes, my hobbies, my sense of humour ( Read more... )

2 nights ago I went speed dating... yep, where you sit down at a table and 17 guys rotate around the room (4.5 minute conversation with each).  I thought it would be a fun experience, a bit of a laugh with a couple of my girl friends. 
of course their was that naive hope that I might meet the boy of my dreams (by now I should really be referring to ( Read more... )

In my writing I often switch forms. subconsiously?

"I hate him" eventually turns into "You don't deserve me."

I feel like maybe, when I am pouring my heart out, I begin to make my words sound more like a letter... perhaps my mind is telling me that I need to actually say these things to certain people, rather than just write about them anonymously.

It still guts me every time I think of them together.  in the bed where I used to sleep.  and cuddle. he was cute.  and funny.  and insensitive.  and probably thought he was too good for me. what makes her so much better?  she’s younger.  not really that much prettier.

he used to make me giggle. blush. but I was not enough for him. I’m not a forever ( Read more... )

You're kiddng yourself if you thought this wasn't going to hurt a little.

You convince yourself that you just enjoyed the attention; a message sent every couple of days.  just knowing that someone out there was thinking of you.  not necessarily in a romantic sense. but thinking about you.  thinking that they are interested in how you are. that they ( Read more... )

today work sucks,

the end.

I am over you.

Now you just need to get over yourself!! 

maybe I'm too jaded,

to love somebody like you.

I'd love to... but...

how hard is it to just tell me 'no' ?