HEY, I'VE CHANGED MY USERNAME TO

pixi_lust

AND THIS USERNAME WILL STILL BE HERE, BUT I WON'T WRITE ON IT ANYMORE.
THANKS Y'ALL

-the artist formerly known as bellagiulia

why do i find myself slipping in and out of liking him? HE'S UNAAILABLE, HE'S UNAVAILABLE!!! I guess how ever many times i tell myself that it won't get through to me. I was never one to give up easily, and i am certainly not now, but it seems i have obstacles in my path....theyre called girlfriends........fuck.

what happened to the times where we werent ashamed to be with our parents? its hard to remember the time that sarcasm was too big for us. why cant we be the little kids on the bridge, trying to reach the water with our feet? i wish i could be back in the ocean....jumping on waves then laughing hystericaly. i sit and long for the times when i ( Read more... )

My Sister's Christmas Eve Breakdown ( Read more... )

Fucked up
I mpossible
Nauseating
A bsolutely pointless
Lurid
Screw finals, Im quitting school

Finals are out to get me......maybe ill join the circus

i want ( Read more... )

sometimes i look into the mirror and think, maybe im the reflection....and what im seeing is the real julia. maybe the same old me i see when i look into the mirror is her.....perhaps she is this amazing girl who is royalty, thats everygirls dream right? maybe shes enough for everyone, maybe she has this incredible boyfriend. Maybe her parents ( Read more... )

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sorry i had to do that

I sit next to my beautiful bahibak on the phone with her boyfriend...theyre laughin and talking, coyly begging the other for maybe just a joke more or another excuse to hear the other's voice. I was taught how to flirt the other day, and realized that nothing that i actually do is flirty. I tried to put myself in a guys shoes, looking at the way ( Read more... )

Healing
Appreciation
Peace
Pleasure
Interest
Nourishment
Excitement
Smile
Sillyness
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Hurt
Anger
Plea
Pain
Intolerance
Negativity
Empty
Sarcasm
Self-concious