Heisenberg's Bastard, Part V

[bellatrys]

Of course I'm a fanatic and a milquetoast at the same time - wave/particle, legitimate/bastard, evil-selfish-brat/goody-two-shoes, it's a wonder I even exist--My brothers were allowed to go on school and scounting trips to Canada, Pennsylvania, out West, to go rock climbing and rafting and have lives as kids because they were males and males needed

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[anonymous]

I didn't see parts 4 and 5 last night, so I've just read them now. Even though they were triggering enough that I broke out into cold sweat, and I reek of fear now, and my heart is racing.

I promised myself I'd be a witness to others who've been through similar hells, no matter how hard it was, because I couldn't save my siblings and cousins from being stunted and destroyed. I remember my mother before she had a nervous breakdown and slid into a half-world of narcissism and abuse. I was wanted, and I was happy, until I was 7. By the time I was 10, I felt 100, and wished I'd never been born. All the therapy and hard work in the world can't fix any of that.

I'll go back to lurking after this.

~Laima from Slacktivist

[honeysuckle_raw]

I found this LJ through, I think, TheHathorLegacy.com. You don't know me, but I've been reading Heisenberg's Bastard over the course of the last couple weeks and I just want to tell you how glad I am that you wrote it. It's opened my eyes to many things, including emotional abuse that I grew up with and but never really named because, it not (always) being physical, I didn't think I had the "right." Your prose is so unswerving and dense; I admire you for telling this story so unmincingly.