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[bellavoce83]

Today is another day of struggle.  If I were at home, I'd be at the Sonic in Pgh Mills for an event with my Bobcam friends.  I can watch it on the cam but I can't be there.  And this makes me extremely sad, so I had to turn it off.  I miss everyone at home so freaking much.  I can't seem to turn my thoughts away from this and onto the studying I

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[unipride]

I think you have several things to consider. John is great - but he should be supporting you, not making coments like that. Thats not helping, thats hurting. I think he needs to consider this too, thats its not easy for either of you but really his thing should be supporting your choices

[bellavoce83]

Don't get me wrong, Jon is very supportive of what I'm doing. He's just having as hard of a time dealing with it as I am. And as for my advisor, she'll be potentially getting a new student in the fall. But here comes the point in my life where I need to focus on myself, and not what other people want. I cannot stay here purely because my advisor wants me to. I'm miserable, I'm depressed, I'm not myself. I plan on giving it the semester and then deciding for certain, but I also plan on warning her soon of my decision. I'm trying very hard to take this experience for what it is, a learning and growing experience. But in the end, living like this for the next two years is something I can't fathom being able to handle, even with a dog, even with a friend or two. I'm not that type of person and I'm trying to come to terms with that. I need my friends around me, I need my family. If I find that I need this degree for what I want to do, I will figure out a way to get it closer to home. But if I can get the kind of job I want