Living Lies

[belle_from_hell]

I wonder if anyone knows just how miserable I really am. Sometimes I think they might, but then I am disappointed at just how clueless my friends and boyfriend are. "Looking hard into your eyes there was no one I'd ever known... such an empty surprise from the feeling we've known. How long have I been sleeping? How long have I been drifting along

Comments

[valdreag]

I can't say everything here that I want to say, but I'm here for you. I'll always be here for you, and if there's anything I can do, tell me. Just remember that I care for you, no matter what you may think you have wrong with you.

I'll see you soon...take care of yourself until then.

You goddam right

[anonymous]

Welcome to your own little glass Hell. Who would have thought you of all people would have trust issues? I for one did, but I had wanted to see your ship slowly sink myself. I'm pretty sure there isn't anyone left on this planet that would rather hug you than take a shovel to the bridge of your nose. I mean, you're a special type of gal. The type who can somehow stab you in the back even when it's not turned. Take solace in that fact. I hear in certain African countries whore is spelled with an 'A' just to honor you. Go get 'em champ.
--Koopz

Kupec is absolutely right!

[belle_from_hell]

I unscreened this comment especially to prove my own point. I hurt people even when I try to keep them close. It is almost more hurtful to them to keep them there than to just tell them to fuck off and be done with them. Kupec makes a valid point. There aren't many people like him that I haven't hurt. It was amazingly hard for him to open up to me and I was so happy when he did. In return I opened right back up to him and instead of this perfect, cool, nice, awesome girl he had portrayed me to be in his own mind.... he got the real me. The selfish, cold, heartless, hurtful person who thought she could find solace in a friend who cared. The only problem was that this particular friend was exactly like her and she never saw it coming. This friend was no friend at all. Yes kiddies, this friend was in fact a fiend. He was a fiend to abuse, neglect, and self mutilation. I loved him for that. I loved this fiend for all his fucked up qualities and I was pushed away for mine. Yet deep inside I know that he loves me and that is why this

Re: Kupec is absolutely right!

[belle_from_hell]

Oh, I almost forgot! Thank you for catching me slipping Kupec. No one could've done quite like you.

One thing

[specialkay87]

I can't speak for anyone else, but I found one mistake in your conclusions. See I know there is at least one person that would rather hug her than do anything to harm her. Yes, Yes, it's true. And as much as I'd like to tell you to fuck off, Addy's a big girl and can take care of herself. Not to mention that it's slightly impolite.
-Heather