I feel the need to make to whole house shake with music ( Read more... )

So today was over-all a damn good day ( Read more... )

On the plus side I did get to be with Lauren yesterday and we went to see Bourne Supremacy. Very good movie. Matt Damon playing that role reminds me of Stuart (scary, huh?). I felt so bad for Lauren though, cuz her mouth hurt so much all day ( Read more... )

She doesnt believe me. I couldnt figure out what to say. It felt like someone stabbed me ( Read more... )

I'm so empty... and sad.

Why am I so sad?

I feel so unwanted ( Read more... )

The days keep going and almost every time I come home from being out with my friends, I smell like cigarette smoke. (And I dont smoke ( Read more... )

How did I get stuck with the people in my family? I should have been born to someone else. Everything is so wrong and I hate them so much and I cant get away from them. My head hurts so bad I think I'm gonna throw up bcuz of it. I've been screamed at and yelled at and told how horrible I was all my life, and I'm so tired of it and tired of hearing ( Read more... )

So I spent the day with Lauren friday, we went and saw 'I, Robot', and then I took her to her dad's and we spent the night there. I had a marvelous time, Lauren is absolutely wonderful! But I had to leave ass-early cuz my mom made me come home and babysit for this lady down the street...I hope she pays me! I so almost fell asleep several times when ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if something's wrong with me... sometimes I dont feel things I think I should, or would have felt before now. Actually, alot of the time I feel nothing, when I know, without a doubt, that I should feel something. Is that weird? Cant that be fixed or something? ...Do I even want that to be fixed/changed? The place ...or rather the ( Read more... )