we had a long talk.
i don't feel like getting into details.
i'm not going anywhere, not unless he makes me change my mind.
i love him too much to leave.

one of the diamonds fell out of my ring...
It was the third one in the middle so it's noticeable that there's a huge gap in my ring now...

Corey has blocked model mayhem from the internet ( Read more... )

Stop demanding things from me.
Part of being a model means meeting photographers and having pictures taken.
I have been trying to do this since before we got together.
I can not sit down and be a housewife and give up my dream career because you think it's whoreish.
I'm beautiful.
If I can make my living off of what God has given me, so be it.

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Why am I so hung up over this?
I was so set in my ways;
I had my future all planned out.
This was supposed to be easy.

You weren't supposed to come and fuck with my head.
Now you've disappeared again, leaving me with empty words.
Everything has changed and no matter what I choose; someone is going to get hurt.

Sometimes I cry too often & too easily.
That's just how I handle pain.

Oh the messes I seem to get into.
I don't feel like explaining it.
I have to suck it up and as my dad said, 'eat some humble pie'.
We'll see how everything goes down tomorrow morning when I go in...

On the upper hand..
I went to the gym this morning and I got a new phone today...

Shooting with Ken McCoy tomorrow.
The photo shoot was actually scheduled with Sarah but she invited me along.
Yay for new pics :)

I enjoyed working with Ken before, plus shots of Sarah & I always come out amazing.

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Step 1

Remember to keep track in journal...wouldn't hurt to try keeping in track of a few things actually..
That reminds me I need to draw a new calendar page into the written journal...maybe actually write in it?? nah...

Step 2

Keep going to the gym.
Can't let myself get lazy and give up.
I need to have perfect muscle tone: not bulky body builder woman ( Read more... )

I have to be in peak physical condition, perfect abs and all, within 6 weeks ( Read more... )

I need to start going to a gym.
And I need to keep on myself about doing all these crunches.
Just gotta remember to do em in sets and I should be fine and able to do them all real easy in not time...

I'm so out of shape.

I wonder if I should try for Miss High Times again...