God damn, I am so stupid. I wish I could take some sort of pill to just completely suppress my emotions. I like him AGAIN. This is so not cool. I can't help it. He's really sweet. No one thinks he is for some reason, because he's pretty brash. But he really is. Like, he's a really good person. And he's funny. AND HE'S SO CUTE. Gah! Sometimes I ( Read more... )

Let's make it last forever ( Read more... )

Have you ever been in love ( Read more... )

Well, I'm back on the meds now, so I'm feeling a little bit better. But after that momentary detox, I don't feel like I should really be happy anymore. I mean.. I feel fine, I'm not crazy and set off by the littlest things, but I just feel like it's a manufactured happiness and not really genuine. I mean, maybe I'm not happy because I'm not ( Read more... )

I love when you do stuff that's rude and so wrong

Ohh, man. I don't know what my deal is lately. I'm not sure if my current "crush" is really what it is, or a product of my fear of being alone. Whatever it is, it's completely irrational. But oh, well. I kind of like it. For now. It always ends the same. Eventually I'll wish I had never met him. ( Read more... )

OR COULD WE STILL COMPLIMENT EACH OTHER
LIKE COLORS IN HARMONY THAT MAKE
EACH OTHER LOOK BRIGHTER
LIKE WE DID IN THE OLD DAYS?

So, I'm having an absolutely horrible day. Seriously. I haven't had such a bad day since.... like, the beginning of Sophomore year. I haven't taken my medication in 4 days. He is no longer coming to Amanda's party, so it's going to be Amanda+Carl, Keziah+Cameron... and me. Wow. This is going to be fucking fantastic. I'm pretty sure I know why he's ( Read more... )

Word to the wise..

Don't get completely shitfaced around cute college boys. Seriously. Not a good idea.

And no, it's not what you think. lol

If I ever start to think straight
This heart will start a
RiOT
in me

I am going CRAZY over here! I don't know what to do with myself. I'm so restless.

I saw a bunch of pictures of Mike on facebook today. He was at homecoming with his girlfriend. It kind of made me feel good. Like I'm over it. And I know I keep saying that, and it keeps not being true, ( Read more... )

Aaaahhhh!!! I am NOT the kind of person who can take SO much of the same person ALL the time, EVERY day. I just can't do it. That doesn't make me a bad person. Just someone who needs space. Some people just don't understand that. And it drives me fucking insane. I feel like I'm being followed around by an annoying little kid or something. I can't ( Read more... )