Comments | belleinblack: What I would give...

belleinblack

What I would give...

Jul 09, 2006 03:09

Must be nice.
I can only stand on the outside looking in, can't imagine that I'll ever have the opportunity to sit in your chair.

I guess we all just have to play the hand that's dealt to us.
With these cards, I just can't seem to ever win.

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beekerzwhirled July 9 2006, 03:35:42 UTC

life's a dance. too bad sometimes our partners suck ass and step all over us. maybe it's time for a new deck of cards. any word on getting a place of your own? or a job? or just plain out form under the watchful eye of your babysitter sister?

belleinblack July 9 2006, 04:21:29 UTC

Right now... my biggest issue is my family. Mine sucks.. they treat me like shit... always have. It's leaving me with a sense of being alone in life that I've never felt so strongly. I'm aching.. inside and out.

The ex, he's amazing.. if that weren't the case I'm sure I'd be in a straight jacket right now. Not that I still couldn't use a few days locked in a padded room at this point.

Good news on the job front, but I'm scared to jinx it. SOME news on the apt front, unfortunately moving out is going to depend on getting ahold of a car of my own. It almost looks like I could have a place to live fairly soon, but the lack of personally owned transportation is what will hold me back.

beekerzwhirled July 9 2006, 04:27:29 UTC

move to Carrboro into my new complex! lol there are 2 buses that stop right at the complex. hehe transportation problem solved!

family issues.. well not much can be done about that.. but at least you'll have a new friend in a few weeks! i'm glad the ex is being helpful to you. it would be horrible not to be able to have anyone to talk to about it.

good luck with whatever is happening on the job front! that's my biggest fear personally.

rweishaar July 9 2006, 12:17:09 UTC

Yeah. I'm a peach. Nevermind that this is all my fault in the first place.

As I said before Christa, you can't choose your family, but you can choose whether they are a large part of your life or not. I should be leaving for my new job in a week. If you need money or someone to talk to let me know, ok?

I am always around.