Comments | bellesayuri: it just becomes me

bellesayuri

it just becomes me

May 26, 2006 21:04

theophany (thee-OF-uh-nee) noun

An appearance of a god to a person.

[From Medieval Latin theophania, from Late Greek theophaneia, from Greek
theo- (god) + -phaneia (to show).]

I wonder why I don't like a lot of people. Or at least, why I don't like to talk to them.

I think I've become entirely too dependent on Caller I.D. When I don't feel like ( Read more... )

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lucke May 26 2006, 19:28:56 UTC

I've developed the same called ID depencency as well. And I find myself increasingly reluctant to pick up the phone and talk to people, even people that I do want to talk to.

I don't know what the point of this comment is, other than to say I completely understand where you're coming from, and definitely would not hold it against you.

bellesayuri May 26 2006, 19:41:44 UTC

I'm glad I'm not alone. :)

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bellesayuri May 27 2006, 11:21:50 UTC

Your face is sort of intense. But I kind of love it.

rex_oscen May 27 2006, 02:59:18 UTC

Agreed, agreed. Which is why I absolutely hate people with private numbers that won't show up on your caller I.D.

I think sometimes people just want to reply so much when you suddenly have the wish to talk to someone. It's like, all I really want is you to listen to my rant, maybe nod along with me and that's it. But most people assume you want them to start giving advice, or share their own similar experiences. I can't take that for some reason. I don't know if that's what bugging you too, but well ranting on your blog is a nice alternative I think. =)

bellesayuri May 27 2006, 11:17:20 UTC

I just don't answer!

And I'm fine being the listening ear...I really don't mind at all that so many people come to me with their bitches, rants and problems. I'm very flattered by it, in fact. And I don't mind giving out advice or empathizing or sympathizing (I'm a darn good talker myself, and bossy).

It's just...I just don't ever want to do these things. I don't want to talk, I don't want to listen, and I'm judging myself and calling it a bad thing...I don't know if it is or not, but I feel so selfish for saying it.

Blogs are much better; one can skip reading them if one wants, one need not reply to them, it's entirely up to the reader. I'm only posting for the sake of putting it out there; I don't want or need replies. (I certainly don't get them in my personal journal.) The public forum of the blog is a way to get responses if my writing elicits them; and it's a way to practice my writing, which was, I think, half the point of this entry.