Comments | bellesayuri: i can't touch you anymore

bellesayuri

i can't touch you anymore

Jun 28, 2006 20:45

tor (tor) noun

1. A rocky heap on the top of a hill.

2. A peak of a bared hill.

[From Middle English, from Old English torr. Of uncertain origin: probably from Celtic.]
One of my favorite words.

I can't write anymore. At all. I don't even want to. I only want to take a break, but I'm scared to. What will happen if I just ...stop? I've been ( Read more... )

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metrohippie June 29 2006, 02:40:05 UTC

I'm sorry. I think I know where you're coming from, as I am now slowly recovering from a similar slump. I wish I could tell you something that would help, but honestly, I don't even know where to begin.

I hope things start looking up for you soon!

bellesayuri June 30 2006, 00:07:58 UTC

Has your semi-break helped at all? I mean, can you tell if there is anything different about you and your writing? I don't know what your habits are or were, but I'm used to writing at least once a day, sometimes two or three times, and writing poetry/prose in addition to my personal journal. I haven't written a real journal entry in months. I haven't written a poem in even longer. I feel dried up, uncreative, unmotivated and (scariest of all) uncaring. I would appreciate your insight, since you have been/are in a similar situation.

metrohippie June 30 2006, 02:01:24 UTC

I think it has. But it was much less a break than a shake-up of my normal conventions. By completely starting anew, I was able to shake off my addiction to audience-pandering.

I don't know if that'll help what afflicts you. But I think it's worth a try. From what you just wrote, I'm inferring that you're very ritualistic about where, when, and how you write. Break the routine. Try something unconventional. See if it helps.

However, you could just be burned out. If that's the case, I see nothing wrong with taking a break.

bellesayuri July 1 2006, 00:16:42 UTC

Ritualistic is part of how it is...the other part is desire. If I don't want to do it, I will do it, but only begrudgingly. I haven't wanted to do it in a long time.

I think burned out is a good description of how I feel.

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bellesayuri June 30 2006, 00:05:11 UTC

I'm scared. But I think I have to. I don't know if there's anything else to do at this point.

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bellesayuri July 1 2006, 00:15:27 UTC

Never ever. Shanut communication is in the heart.

we did it!!!! battousaistrata July 4 2006, 02:34:53 UTC

alrighty, everything worked out..I got the tickets from Grande (students $6.00)..mary got reservations to the cheesecake factory....this'll be freakin awesome....we finally get to see each other again..woot woot..well, see you there

peace out

Re: we did it!!!! bellesayuri July 4 2006, 16:56:57 UTC

Woo hoo!!

Also, I might just meet y'all at Cheesecake Factory...Cause it's easier that way, and because I want to get cleaned up after work and whatnot. But I'll call and let you know.

YAHOOOO!!!!!! battousaistrata July 17 2006, 18:22:11 UTC

YAY!!! I have good news!!! I have finally gotten a cell phone (I'm no longer living in the stone age). The number is 609-1276 and I'll have it on from now on (although I can't promise that i'll be able to pick up everytime) Anywho, have an awesome rest of the summer and we need to hang out again!!! chao!!

Re: YAHOOOO!!!!!! bellesayuri July 17 2006, 22:57:54 UTC

It has been saved. And I believe you have mine, so all's well. :D Enjoy your new toy!!

rex_oscen August 22 2006, 02:32:20 UTC

"Writing -- the art of communicating thoughts to the mind, through the eye -- is the great invention of the world." - Abraham Lincoln, Lecture on Discoveries and Inventions

In any case, hope you're feeling better. I've always liked your writing- honest, optimistic, educational (heh... well you do a good job introducing new words asd quotes), and essentially human. Whether you want to continue writing or not, it's up to you, but I'll support your decision, whatever it is. =)

bellesayuri August 22 2006, 17:24:37 UTC

Nice quote.

The last few weeks have done me some...thing. Good, I don't know. But I'm going to start trying to write in my personal journal soon, and then we'll see if I can come back to teh intarwebs. I appreciate your kind words and your support. It means quite a bit to me, since I consider your writing to be some of my favorite on the web.