Now, back to my earthquake!
Well, I feel overdue for an actual post that abstains from just posting videos of samoyeds crying.
The past few months have been really rough for me. I kept getting more and more depressed, and I was at a point where I could barely leave the apartment. I was missing class virtually constantly, almost never in the lab, missing therapy frequently and I was just in an absolutely hopeless place. I had some good luck with my research a few months ago, which was really good, but it wasn't enough. Fortunately my super-smart therapist recommended some new meds for me (Vyvanse, which is not an anti-depressant) and it has made such a huge difference. The past few weeks have seen my return to being a functional human being. I actually go to work. That sounds mundane probably, but it is such a huge step up from just turning into dust. I'm still pretty depressed, unfortunately. After the initial shock of medication actually working I'm sort of left with that terrifying gray abyss that is reality staring me in the face. Right now, I'm just more scared then anything.
My research is...odd. I'm finally able to use the group's big piece of equipment, "the apparatus" as it is referred to. Which is awesome. It is very fun to use, and really not that scary once you feel comfortable with it. It's just basically "high" vac line manipulations.
That being said, I felt like I had characterized and had a decent understanding of what was happening with this reaction I'd been studying...and so I decided to try it on the apparatus. And it did something absolutely different. It was really remarkable. In a reaction that basically looks clear or light orange (depending on the conditions) it was now turning bright purple...and I have no idea why. Very exciting. Hopefully I can make some headway on it this week. Unfortunately I am at a point where I just get so scared of something like this (instead of just being rapt with excitement...which I should be). I am just so scared to fail. I always just feel so...marginalized.
I bought AVP for the 360 recently. It is very, very awesome. I haven't touched the predator campaign yet, but I've been working on the alien and marine one. The alien campaign is awesome, the controls are very cool and they did a good job of making you feel like a terrifying killing machine. I am sad that I don't think you can be a facehugger/chestburster anymore, but oh well. The marine campaign is just the scariest thing ever. Honestly the marine campaign is what i look forward to most in these games. Even though it is less novel to play as the space marines, by playing as them you really get the more scary and exciting experience of the movies, and that is awesome. I haven't really sunk my teeth (neither set) into the multiplayer yet, but I bet I'll enjoy it. It's good to play something other than modern warfare 2 for awhile anyhow.
I've also really gotten into comic books recently. It's fun.
Oh, and I just downloaded Kylie Minogue's new album today, and it is just fan-fucking-tastic! Go Kylie!
And finally:
The past few months have been really rough for me. I kept getting more and more depressed, and I was at a point where I could barely leave the apartment. I was missing class virtually constantly, almost never in the lab, missing therapy frequently and I was just in an absolutely hopeless place. I had some good luck with my research a few months ago, which was really good, but it wasn't enough. Fortunately my super-smart therapist recommended some new meds for me (Vyvanse, which is not an anti-depressant) and it has made such a huge difference. The past few weeks have seen my return to being a functional human being. I actually go to work. That sounds mundane probably, but it is such a huge step up from just turning into dust. I'm still pretty depressed, unfortunately. After the initial shock of medication actually working I'm sort of left with that terrifying gray abyss that is reality staring me in the face. Right now, I'm just more scared then anything.
My research is...odd. I'm finally able to use the group's big piece of equipment, "the apparatus" as it is referred to. Which is awesome. It is very fun to use, and really not that scary once you feel comfortable with it. It's just basically "high" vac line manipulations.
That being said, I felt like I had characterized and had a decent understanding of what was happening with this reaction I'd been studying...and so I decided to try it on the apparatus. And it did something absolutely different. It was really remarkable. In a reaction that basically looks clear or light orange (depending on the conditions) it was now turning bright purple...and I have no idea why. Very exciting. Hopefully I can make some headway on it this week. Unfortunately I am at a point where I just get so scared of something like this (instead of just being rapt with excitement...which I should be). I am just so scared to fail. I always just feel so...marginalized.
I bought AVP for the 360 recently. It is very, very awesome. I haven't touched the predator campaign yet, but I've been working on the alien and marine one. The alien campaign is awesome, the controls are very cool and they did a good job of making you feel like a terrifying killing machine. I am sad that I don't think you can be a facehugger/chestburster anymore, but oh well. The marine campaign is just the scariest thing ever. Honestly the marine campaign is what i look forward to most in these games. Even though it is less novel to play as the space marines, by playing as them you really get the more scary and exciting experience of the movies, and that is awesome. I haven't really sunk my teeth (neither set) into the multiplayer yet, but I bet I'll enjoy it. It's good to play something other than modern warfare 2 for awhile anyhow.
I've also really gotten into comic books recently. It's fun.
Oh, and I just downloaded Kylie Minogue's new album today, and it is just fan-fucking-tastic! Go Kylie!
And finally:
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