Drabble #1
Title: Drabble #1
Rating: PG
Pairing: Tao/Sehun
Summary: basically taohun thinking about life
A/N: just a drabble, nothing special
“Tao?”
Tao looked over at Sehun, who was still staring at the sky above them. They came out to the Bugak Skyway after a long day of practice. No one was around and they both felt like they could finally breathe after being constantly smothered by their company’s staff and even their own members.
Tao hummed to acknowledge that he had heard Sehun and to encourage him to continue talking. Meanwhile, he looked back up at the sky and waited for Sehun to ask what he wanted to.
“Do you ever think about what your life would be like if you hadn’t joined SM?”
Tao turned to look at Sehun questioningly, wondering where this question had come from. He could only tell Sehun the truth though, because there were no secrets between them.
“Yeah, of course. What about you?”
Sehun still hadn’t faced him or even looked in his direction. Tao was used to this though. He knew it took a lot for Sehun to talk about his feelings and he wasn’t like Tao in the aspect that he could just blurt it out. So instead of pestering him, Tao leaned against his car and observed the surrounding area. He waited patiently for a reply, while thinking about his own.
Sometimes when it got rough, between their schedules and the constant negativity from the internet, he would wonder what his life would have been like if he had stayed in China. Would he have became famous at all? Would he have the amount of fans he has now? Would he have stayed in Qingdao and ended up working under his father? Then he thinks about other things, specifically about Sehun. Would they have ever met? Would Sehun still have been in EXO? Would he have fallen in love with Sehun through the TV and internet? Would he have even known who Sehun was? Whenever he thought about the fact that Sehun and him could have never met, his chest tightens. The thought scared him more than any scary movie or haunted house could. Tao’s thoughts halted as soon as Sehun started to talk.
“I think about it a lot. I always wonder what I would be doing right now if I hadn’t joined SM. Would I still be dancing? What kind of work would I be doing? Would we have…”
Tao knew why Sehun didn’t finish the sentence, because Sehun didn’t really want to think too hard about it either. They had both come so far, done so many things, that they were thankful for SM. Even if their company wore them down to the ground to make money, at least they’ve experienced things in this world that others aren’t lucky enough to.
Tao moved so that he could stand behind Sehun and backhug him, just like all of those times before, and whispered into Sehun’s ear in an attempt to be comforting, “Hunnie, don’t worry. We’re here now, right? We’ve got each other, right? I’m always going to be here by your side. You’re stuck with me until you say otherwise. Whatever could have happened in the past didn’t happen and we’re here now, so let’s be happy and enjoy it.”
Tao could feel Sehun relax in his arms and he smiled against Sehun’s neck. They both looked up at the sky at the same time, Tao’s arms still tightly wrapped around Sehun. The sky was beautiful and made Tao think of how small their lives were compared to everything else in this world. It grounded him and reminded him that even with all the fame, he’s still human and vulnerable. They’re still human and vulnerable.
Honestly, despite all of the hardships they’ve had to go through, Tao wouldn’t trade this moment for the world, because he knew that he was exactly where he needed to be. As long as he could continue to be by Sehun’s side, growing and watching Sehun grow as well, he was happy and that was all that really mattered.