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inclosed box
i feel like im in a box... that is being stomped on.. and no matter how loud i scream, or how hard i cry.. no one cares.. no one hears me.. I have never wanted something to end so much in my life.. said thing is... life is what i want to end.. why should i live? I am nothing but a dissappointment to my mother anyway! Rich semi understands, but he ( Read more... ) -
I fuckin cant stand it anymore!!
I cant stand this house, this family!!! These people!! ARG!!! Im ready to commit suicide already, and just end it now!! Im ready to just get in my car and never come back!! To just leave! To start OVER with new people! Fuck you Amber! Fuck you!! Fuck you Dougie, and RIch !! I cant stand the fucked up situation this fuckin family has put me in! I am ( Read more... ) -
speaking sign language
okay so today while i had like 45 minutes of spear time, i rode with arielle up to Tricounty to get her glasses, and on our way back we were fighting over the radio and making sexual gestures at each other and being goofy when arielle was makin the gesture to me of me givin her head, a car with two guys rolled up to next us, and thought arielle ( Read more... ) -
Lots of Thinking...
okay yea so guess who has been extreamly buissy!! Me, yup me! I have SOOOOOOO much goin on right now.. its ridiculious! Extreamly!! My dad and every keeps tellin me Jason calls, and i NEVER have time to talk to him, or call him back. and i feel like a jack ass when he just straight comes over and i have to leave as soon as he gets there... i have ( Read more... ) -
Thinking...
ya know what? I have been doing lots and lots of thinking today...
First things first, lets talk about the boys of Jackies life...
Hm.. where to start off... here we will just name them, and how i feel about them lmao..
Boys OF Jackies Life
1. Timmy Lyday - started off great then yea.. douche bag
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*sigh*
now im at that state of depression where i hate everyone but the one i miss.. But i think its just my way of being lonely.. *sigh*... I miss Jason and its my own fault... -
*Bangs Head Against Cement*
Okay lets review the last few days shall we ( Read more... ) -
yesterday...
yesterday was fun i went on a lovely adventure with jason! It involved almost getting arrested for truss passing, and didnt even know i was on private property!!! I couldnt beleive it. It was funny.. Jason acted like he was scared, and then he laughed about it for a very long time ( Read more... ) -
New Times and Old Memories!!
So i have been hangin out with Jason and Adam and Last night i realized that i feel completely comfortable there and it was just awesome. It was me Adam Mike, and James. James was only there for a little bit, but it was cool. They told me i could come over anytime.. it really reminded me of sitting in my old garage with Arielle, it was awesome. I ( Read more... ) -
That longing feeling
feeling your arms around me, feeling your hands caresse my skin as you kiss me ever so softly! you stare into my eyes with those soft green eyes, and its like i melt right there in your arms. the touch of your skin, the taste of your lips, their intoxicating. to put words to the way you make me feel, is impossible!! i long for you when u are ( Read more... )