Love Is Blind, But I'm Not : Afterstory~~ Part 3
A/N: thanks to vin11lover for scolding me^^ or else i will put this afterstory on hiatus until next year~~GAH!!
“Please don’t wake up now.”
Tears were flowing down his cheeks. Using his sleeves, he dried the tears roughly, and hiccups were following.
“Siwon-hyung, I’m in love with you. I know this is wrong, but I am in love with you. I don’t know when this started, when does this heart started to beat for you, but what I know is, right now, I am in love with you.” And still, hiccups didn’t leave him.
“I’m in love with you, so much, that I need to see you every day. I need to hear your voice every day.” He paused, and bit his lower lip.
“But I know, this love is wrong. And I promise I won’t tell anyone about it, not even to you. So please...”
He lowered his face, and eyed the clean, sleeping face in front of him. The guy was gorgeous. His skin is flawless, and his eyelashes are inviting girls all around.
“...don’t wake up now.”
And he kissed the unusual long lips lightly.
***
He could see the smile on his brothers’ friend’s face.
Donghae was skinny, with pale skin and small eyes. He stuttered a lot when he speak, and he was so clumsy, that sometimes he fell down, even when there’s nothing in his way. He never ran out of laughter when Donghae was around.
He never realised, that he already captured by the innocence in the kid’s face. And he himself didn’t understand why he always trying to escape from the latter’s day-dreaming gaze. He never thought that he would fall for a kid, a boy one day. Fall for his student for crying out loud!
***
It only needs Donghae alone to imprison him in this forbidden love. He was trying to endure his feelings for this little man, when suddenly; he got transferred to the school where Donghae were studying.
“I read your holy book, and remember you all the time, why must you playing with my fate like this?”
But God never answered. So he concludes that God never wants his servants to be in the easy path in life, so he apologized.
But even that never calm him down.
***
Donghae was sweating, as he soon discovered that it was Siwon who were in charge for his class after their homeroom teacher took a leave for her wedding. And what made him sweat even more, after the replacement thingie, Siwon will become a permanent teacher there.
“It was hard enough for me to endure this, why must he shook my heart again??”
Even so, he managed to silently loving Siwon behind his smiles, without him even knowing that Siwon, too, was trying hard to deny his feelings inside, watching his smiles from afar.
***
He was sure, that he was good at hiding it, until one night, a week after Kyuhyun was admitted into hospital for his operation.
There’s nothing to be weird about that night, and Siwon thought he was free from the feelings for Donghae, as they joked around as they usually did. But then, when he was about to fall asleep, slow footsteps were heard, entering his bedroom. Sniffs were covering every corner of the room, and a little figure, which he was sure it was Donghae, sat down next to his bed.
The sniffs came from him, and Siwon was wondering why, until...
“I’m in love with you, so much, that I need to see you every day. I need to hear your voice every day.”
That one sentence fluttered his heart. What he felt at that time was, he wanted to hug Donghae, tells him ‘I love you too!’, kiss him with all his might, and never let him go. But when...
“But I know, this love is wrong. And I promise I won’t tell anyone about it, not even to you.”
And he was in doubt. About his feelings, and Donghae’s. If he wakes up now, he can never turn back. And that was what he was about to do, when a second thought hit him.
‘What if this is just a time where my heart gets confused? Can I say I love him later on?’
And with just that, he stopped his mind from thinking about it all night, and listened to Donghae’s silent tears, until Donghae himself fell asleep next to him.
He didn’t make any move.
And as he woke up the next morning, he turned to face Donghae, and tousled the latter’s hair, with a calm expression on his face.
“This is just the time where my feelings confused me. This love can never be true, Donghae. But just so you know, right now, I am in love with you. But I don’t Please, as you told me last night, just don’t wake up now.”
And a kiss was returned.
***
What Siwon missed; or didn’t want to realise on that morning, was Donghae’s heavy breathings when he kissed him, and some small drops of clear water when he stood up from the bed.
He was grateful that he was loved, too, but he was sad because their love can never be true.
And he just couldn’t act straight as always with Siwon when he visited Kyuhyun later, so that’s why he was calling Siwon ‘sunsang-nim’ instead of hyung.(A/N: see chapter 6 ‘Love Is Blind, But I’m Not) Which leave Siwon restless after that.
***
For the years afterwards, he had witnessed Kyuhyun fighting for his love for Sungmin, and he just couldn’t envy their braveness more than enyone else. If only Siwon was as his brother, Kyuhyun, his best friend who never hesitated in making any choice, he must’ve been happy with him right now.
They were lying to themselves, and he was the only one who was suffering by it. This is not fair. But what can he do?
***
And he was at the very verge of tears once again, when Siwon walked his way across the church, with Ri In waiting for him with a smile. And he felt as if he wanted to pull down Ri In when they were kissing, and took her place as Siwon’s bride, and kiss him.
But he loves Ri In as his noona, so much, that he didn’t have the heart to do that.
‘Heh, what were you thinking, Donghae?? She’s innocent!’
He was faking his smile, when little Seunggi came and put his small hands into his. Only then, he was smiling. To be exact, tearing up inside, and hugged the little boy.
“Uncle Donghae, don’t cry. I want to apologize.” He wiped the adult’s tear, leaving the man dumbfounded, staring at him.
“I’m sorry you’re crying for my mum’s wedding. And please don’t hate Siwon appa for not hugging you when you cry like this, but I promise...”
The little boy held both his hands, and put on a cute smile.
“That I won’t let you cry again.”
And a little pecks on his lips.
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p/s: okay, i’m back!! This afterstory is alive again!!!! *throw away hiatus sign* ^^ guess that you guys can figure it out well with the ending...sorry there’s no EunHae in here. Doesn’t mean that i’m against them or whatever. Just want to try some weird coupling a lil bit. ^^ anyways, comments are luved^^
“Please don’t wake up now.”
Tears were flowing down his cheeks. Using his sleeves, he dried the tears roughly, and hiccups were following.
“Siwon-hyung, I’m in love with you. I know this is wrong, but I am in love with you. I don’t know when this started, when does this heart started to beat for you, but what I know is, right now, I am in love with you.” And still, hiccups didn’t leave him.
“I’m in love with you, so much, that I need to see you every day. I need to hear your voice every day.” He paused, and bit his lower lip.
“But I know, this love is wrong. And I promise I won’t tell anyone about it, not even to you. So please...”
He lowered his face, and eyed the clean, sleeping face in front of him. The guy was gorgeous. His skin is flawless, and his eyelashes are inviting girls all around.
“...don’t wake up now.”
And he kissed the unusual long lips lightly.
***
He could see the smile on his brothers’ friend’s face.
Donghae was skinny, with pale skin and small eyes. He stuttered a lot when he speak, and he was so clumsy, that sometimes he fell down, even when there’s nothing in his way. He never ran out of laughter when Donghae was around.
He never realised, that he already captured by the innocence in the kid’s face. And he himself didn’t understand why he always trying to escape from the latter’s day-dreaming gaze. He never thought that he would fall for a kid, a boy one day. Fall for his student for crying out loud!
***
It only needs Donghae alone to imprison him in this forbidden love. He was trying to endure his feelings for this little man, when suddenly; he got transferred to the school where Donghae were studying.
“I read your holy book, and remember you all the time, why must you playing with my fate like this?”
But God never answered. So he concludes that God never wants his servants to be in the easy path in life, so he apologized.
But even that never calm him down.
***
Donghae was sweating, as he soon discovered that it was Siwon who were in charge for his class after their homeroom teacher took a leave for her wedding. And what made him sweat even more, after the replacement thingie, Siwon will become a permanent teacher there.
“It was hard enough for me to endure this, why must he shook my heart again??”
Even so, he managed to silently loving Siwon behind his smiles, without him even knowing that Siwon, too, was trying hard to deny his feelings inside, watching his smiles from afar.
***
He was sure, that he was good at hiding it, until one night, a week after Kyuhyun was admitted into hospital for his operation.
There’s nothing to be weird about that night, and Siwon thought he was free from the feelings for Donghae, as they joked around as they usually did. But then, when he was about to fall asleep, slow footsteps were heard, entering his bedroom. Sniffs were covering every corner of the room, and a little figure, which he was sure it was Donghae, sat down next to his bed.
The sniffs came from him, and Siwon was wondering why, until...
“I’m in love with you, so much, that I need to see you every day. I need to hear your voice every day.”
That one sentence fluttered his heart. What he felt at that time was, he wanted to hug Donghae, tells him ‘I love you too!’, kiss him with all his might, and never let him go. But when...
“But I know, this love is wrong. And I promise I won’t tell anyone about it, not even to you.”
And he was in doubt. About his feelings, and Donghae’s. If he wakes up now, he can never turn back. And that was what he was about to do, when a second thought hit him.
‘What if this is just a time where my heart gets confused? Can I say I love him later on?’
And with just that, he stopped his mind from thinking about it all night, and listened to Donghae’s silent tears, until Donghae himself fell asleep next to him.
He didn’t make any move.
And as he woke up the next morning, he turned to face Donghae, and tousled the latter’s hair, with a calm expression on his face.
“This is just the time where my feelings confused me. This love can never be true, Donghae. But just so you know, right now, I am in love with you. But I don’t Please, as you told me last night, just don’t wake up now.”
And a kiss was returned.
***
What Siwon missed; or didn’t want to realise on that morning, was Donghae’s heavy breathings when he kissed him, and some small drops of clear water when he stood up from the bed.
He was grateful that he was loved, too, but he was sad because their love can never be true.
And he just couldn’t act straight as always with Siwon when he visited Kyuhyun later, so that’s why he was calling Siwon ‘sunsang-nim’ instead of hyung.(A/N: see chapter 6 ‘Love Is Blind, But I’m Not) Which leave Siwon restless after that.
***
For the years afterwards, he had witnessed Kyuhyun fighting for his love for Sungmin, and he just couldn’t envy their braveness more than enyone else. If only Siwon was as his brother, Kyuhyun, his best friend who never hesitated in making any choice, he must’ve been happy with him right now.
They were lying to themselves, and he was the only one who was suffering by it. This is not fair. But what can he do?
***
And he was at the very verge of tears once again, when Siwon walked his way across the church, with Ri In waiting for him with a smile. And he felt as if he wanted to pull down Ri In when they were kissing, and took her place as Siwon’s bride, and kiss him.
But he loves Ri In as his noona, so much, that he didn’t have the heart to do that.
‘Heh, what were you thinking, Donghae?? She’s innocent!’
He was faking his smile, when little Seunggi came and put his small hands into his. Only then, he was smiling. To be exact, tearing up inside, and hugged the little boy.
“Uncle Donghae, don’t cry. I want to apologize.” He wiped the adult’s tear, leaving the man dumbfounded, staring at him.
“I’m sorry you’re crying for my mum’s wedding. And please don’t hate Siwon appa for not hugging you when you cry like this, but I promise...”
The little boy held both his hands, and put on a cute smile.
“That I won’t let you cry again.”
And a little pecks on his lips.
__________________________________
p/s: okay, i’m back!! This afterstory is alive again!!!! *throw away hiatus sign* ^^ guess that you guys can figure it out well with the ending...sorry there’s no EunHae in here. Doesn’t mean that i’m against them or whatever. Just want to try some weird coupling a lil bit. ^^ anyways, comments are luved^^