Love Is Blind, But I'm Not (Chap. 12) *FINAL CHAPTER*
Kyuhyun smiled, as he watched the little Seunggi playing together with his sister, Da Hae who can just barely walk. The little boy kept smiling as Da Hae walked towards him and fell in the process.
“Seunggi-ah, you should hold her when she wanted to stand up, like this.” Kyuhyun went to the little girl, and slowly held her up, leaving Seunggi in amazement. He kissed the baby’s forehead, and put her onto Seunggi’s lap, who was waiting to hug his lovely baby sister.
“Kyuhyun, let’s have some tea. Just leave the kids over there.” Ri In ordered him, as she was holding a plate of cookies in her hands. Kyuhyun nodded and smile.
“Okay.”
***
He didn’t say anything, but Ri In could see everything in his eyes. The sadness that can’t be wash away by rain.
“You know...” Ri In paused, looking at his face, to make sure that she got his attention. Kyuhyun was listening.
“...he’s not only your lover, but also my brother-in-law. I’m sad too, but I’ve told everything that I need to tell to you, so if you’re gonna still hold it all in your heart like this, it’s kinda unfair, don’t you think?” Kyuhyun sighed. He thought that he has hid his feelings so well, but Ri In is just like Donghae, who can read one’s feeling in a glimpse.
“I...just don’t have anything to tell you. I’m sad, and you know that. That’s all you need to know.”
“But you didn’t tell me about the attacker. You didn’t tell me that you know her.” Kyuhyun sighed again, heavier this time. “How did you know, noona?”
Ri In smiled, and Kyuhyun could guess the answer. “Siwon hyung? Just how far have you guys have been in love?”
“Far enough for this, I guess.” And she raised her left hand, showing a simple plain ring, but with an expensive-looking stone in the middle. Kyuhyun understood at once.
“You’ve been rejecting him since three years ago, why now?”
“Because he’s your brother.” Kyuhyun shook his head, dumbfounded. Ri In smiled.
“You’re a nice person, and I can see where does the traits came from. It must have been passed down from your mother, to your brother, and to you. And if your brother is older than you, he must’ve been receiving more good traits from your mother than you are.” And Kyuhyun almost die of laughing from Ri In’s stupid guess.
“Are you really accepting him because of that?? Noona??” Ri In smiled again, but this time, it was because she was seeing Kyuhyun’s unrestrained laugh.
“I’ll be helping with your guys wedding, I promise.”
“Then what about you? And Yoona? Don’t you guys going to...” but Kyuhyun already stood up. His phone was ringing.
“I got works to do, so I guess, I’ll come back later.” And he kissed both the kids, and ran with small steps to his car.
“Aigoo~this kid...”
***
What a relief...what a good relief. Kyuhyun just wished that no one’s going to ask him that question, and Ri In finally did. One person that he would never expect to hear it from.
What’s wrong with everyone anyway? Does dating must be ended with marrying the person? Dating doesn’t mean that we’re in love with our partner, right?
Please, tell me that I’m right.
“Sungmin...I miss you.”
It has been three years since the last time he saw Sungmin’s smile. And his laugh. And his sweet kisses.
If only he acted faster than he could at that time, they won’t have to suffer again like this. It was a pain, for Sungmin to wait for him in the years back then, and now it is his turn to feel the same thing.
Waiting for Sungmin to wake up.
***
He still remember, the blood rushing out from Sungmin’s wounded chest, his hands that was covering the wound, trying not to let the blood out, Sungmin’s painful smile, and the kiss that he gave before he shut his eyes.
The tears that fell from Kyuhyun’s eyes wet his shirt, and his small, starting to cold hands were wiping the tears.
“Kyuhyun-ah, don’t cry.”
“Sungmin-shii...you called my name.”
“Don’t you think...that we should stop being so formal?” Kyuhyun was pulling out his phone and dialled 119, when Sungmin pushed the phone away from him, shaking his head.
“I’m happy to be like this with you. Don’t call them. Just hold me a little longer.” Panting, but he still managed to finish his words. And that made Kyuhyun cried even louder.
“I...really love you, Kyuhyun. I never thought that I could love someone like this, and I think, I could never love someone like this, ever again.” Kyuhyun looked into his eyes, and smiled. Painfully.
No, this couldn’t be it. Kyuhyun knew that he should not give up to this situation.
“And because of your love to me, I can’t let you go, just like that.” And again, he reached for his phone, and dialled the number that was already on the screen.
“Kyuhyun-ah...”
“Sungmin-ah, this is not a TV drama, where the heroes will let the heroines to die just like that. I’m a selfish person, and you’ll find me hateful when you know me better.” And he kissed the pale lips, with tears running down both cheeks.
***
Yoona is just a nurse who take care of you, Sungmin. She’s a nice girl, I know. And I shouldn’t used her like this, but it was all for you. And she was fine about it, when I asked her whether she’s okay with it or not.
I want to silence the mouth that kept asking me about my status. So we planned this. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not easy to find you in the last three years back then, thanks for waiting for me. So now, please open your eyes, and look at me, because I’m waiting for you.
***
The tall man came again, and Yoona was aware of his presence. She was smiling when she thought that she was helping the love between two men. Some of her friends, who knew about it, said that she was crazy if she doesn’t seduce Kyuhyun for herself, but she thought that was just stupid.
She never saw this kind of love before, and she was crying when listening to it. Kyuhyun was a good man, and she just hoped that she will get the chance to know Sungmin later.
Maybe she was being naive, but a love is a love, no matter it was a love between who. Sungmin loves Kyuhyun, Kyuhyun loves Sungmin, that’s all that they need to know. Everyone needs to know.
And she just wish, with crossing fingers everytime Kyuhyun came, that Sungmin will open his eyes, and smile again at his beloved.
But still, God didn’t grant her wish. Or Kyuhyun’s.
***
The woman was sitting at the side of the road, holding a bottle of alcohol in her hand. Sometimes she was smiling, other time she was laughing, but mostly, she was crying.
Hyomin didn’t remember, when she became so obsessed with Sungmin. Was it when the man saved her from the accident? Then he shouldn’t save her that time.
Or was it when Sungmin rejected her when she was asking him to be her boyfriend? Then he shouldn’t reject her. Yeah, it was at that time, that she thought, Sungmin was wasting his time, loving a man. A love story that could never be realized.
“I’m a woman that loves you, but you still chasing a man. How do you think I felt about it? What about my pride?? You’re in love with my brother, when I was clearly giving in to you!! You fool!!” hiccups were following her words.
Hyomin never intended in hurting Sungmin. She wanted to hurt Kyuhyun, not killing him or whatsoever. But she was so jealous about the kiss that she saw, that she didn’t care about who will be injured by her stupid action.
And when she read about Sungmin’s condition in the newspaper, she realized that she has done something stupid. Even if Sungmin survived, there’s no way she’ll be loved by him, or maybe not even forgiven by Kyuhyun.
“What have I done? I took my own brother’s happiness, when I was the one who wanted him to have that on his own...Kyuhyun-ah, mianhe. Noona loves you. But my love for Sungmin was blinding me.”
She started to walk across the dark street, when she saw a pair of light on her left.
And honking was heard, along with the sounds of crushing bones and flesh.
***
Everyone was wearing dark clothing, and sobs were heard from every corner. Hyomin’s smiling face was standing in front of the wall, with white roses around the frame. Hyori was crying in her husband’s chest, and Siwon was hugging Kyuhyun’s shoulders.
“I never thought that this will be the way we meet for the last time, Hyomin-ah.” Hyori said, as she was wiping the smiling picture. A few minutes later, she turned to Kyuhyun, and asked,
“Is this the end that you expected? For her to die because of your stupid love?”
“Noona!” Siwon was trying to back him up, when Kyuhyun knelt in front of the picture. “I never hate her. In fact, I love her. She was my sister after all. Just like you. If only she came to me and apologized, this will never happened. I didn’t hold any grudge against her, or you at all, noona.” And he hugged Hyori who was speechless with his words.
“I’m sorry, Kyuhyun-ah, I’m so sorry. If only I didn’t do all that, this thing...” and Kyuhyun hushed her quiet.
“Let bygone be bygone. It’s useless to speak about what has happened. All that we need right now is what is about to happen in the future.”
***
You see me in this black suit, Sungmin? I was at Hyomin’s funeral. She was hit by a truck last night. You must’ve been so relieved right now. No, Sungmin-ah. That’s not good.
Even though she was the one who made us suffer, she’s still my sister. So when you wake up, we have to go to her grave and give some respects.
I already know that your brother was the donor to my eyes, Sungmin. And I’ve met with his wife, and kids. The cute Seunggi and the adventurous Da Hae. How they wish to see their uncle again.
And I’m sorry to tell you this, that in the last three years you’ve been sleeping, my brother had fell in love with your sister-in-law, and they are preparing for their wedding right now. In just about two months from now.
I’ll be very busy, trying to help them with the wedding, and doing my jobs. And speaking of job, I’m sorry that I didn’t work in your large company. I wanted to start from below. I know, I know. Donghae was mad like you, too. But I managed to calm him down, and I wish that I can do the same to you.
And Yoona really want to have a chat with you, when I told her what a good speaker you were. And I wish for the same too. There’s so much to say to you, and so much to learn from you.
So wake up sooner, because I will be here for you. And will be waiting for you. Just like what you did for me before.
And for the 913th time since you’ve been sleeping, 1437.
Oh~maybe you forgot the meaning. I LOVE YOU FOREVER.
And a kiss for a goodnight sleep.
***
Kyuhyun kissed the cold, pale lips, and smiled. He will never give up on Sungmin, no matter in what. He turned and saw Yoona smiling at him, with a thumb up sign, and a mouthed ‘him-ne-ja’.
Today is the 913th day Sungmin has been in coma, a deep one. And he still believes that in anytime, his beloved could be awake.
But maybe, not today.
“Keep on fighting, my love. I’ll be here tomorrow, for the 914th day. Sleep as much as you can, but wake up before I die. That’s all that I’m wishing for right now. Sarang hae.” And he kissed Sungmin’s forehead.
And as soon as he left, Sungmin’s pinky finger moved, and a name was called.
“Kyuhyun...”
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Chapter 11
“Seunggi-ah, you should hold her when she wanted to stand up, like this.” Kyuhyun went to the little girl, and slowly held her up, leaving Seunggi in amazement. He kissed the baby’s forehead, and put her onto Seunggi’s lap, who was waiting to hug his lovely baby sister.
“Kyuhyun, let’s have some tea. Just leave the kids over there.” Ri In ordered him, as she was holding a plate of cookies in her hands. Kyuhyun nodded and smile.
“Okay.”
***
He didn’t say anything, but Ri In could see everything in his eyes. The sadness that can’t be wash away by rain.
“You know...” Ri In paused, looking at his face, to make sure that she got his attention. Kyuhyun was listening.
“...he’s not only your lover, but also my brother-in-law. I’m sad too, but I’ve told everything that I need to tell to you, so if you’re gonna still hold it all in your heart like this, it’s kinda unfair, don’t you think?” Kyuhyun sighed. He thought that he has hid his feelings so well, but Ri In is just like Donghae, who can read one’s feeling in a glimpse.
“I...just don’t have anything to tell you. I’m sad, and you know that. That’s all you need to know.”
“But you didn’t tell me about the attacker. You didn’t tell me that you know her.” Kyuhyun sighed again, heavier this time. “How did you know, noona?”
Ri In smiled, and Kyuhyun could guess the answer. “Siwon hyung? Just how far have you guys have been in love?”
“Far enough for this, I guess.” And she raised her left hand, showing a simple plain ring, but with an expensive-looking stone in the middle. Kyuhyun understood at once.
“You’ve been rejecting him since three years ago, why now?”
“Because he’s your brother.” Kyuhyun shook his head, dumbfounded. Ri In smiled.
“You’re a nice person, and I can see where does the traits came from. It must have been passed down from your mother, to your brother, and to you. And if your brother is older than you, he must’ve been receiving more good traits from your mother than you are.” And Kyuhyun almost die of laughing from Ri In’s stupid guess.
“Are you really accepting him because of that?? Noona??” Ri In smiled again, but this time, it was because she was seeing Kyuhyun’s unrestrained laugh.
“I’ll be helping with your guys wedding, I promise.”
“Then what about you? And Yoona? Don’t you guys going to...” but Kyuhyun already stood up. His phone was ringing.
“I got works to do, so I guess, I’ll come back later.” And he kissed both the kids, and ran with small steps to his car.
“Aigoo~this kid...”
***
What a relief...what a good relief. Kyuhyun just wished that no one’s going to ask him that question, and Ri In finally did. One person that he would never expect to hear it from.
What’s wrong with everyone anyway? Does dating must be ended with marrying the person? Dating doesn’t mean that we’re in love with our partner, right?
Please, tell me that I’m right.
“Sungmin...I miss you.”
It has been three years since the last time he saw Sungmin’s smile. And his laugh. And his sweet kisses.
If only he acted faster than he could at that time, they won’t have to suffer again like this. It was a pain, for Sungmin to wait for him in the years back then, and now it is his turn to feel the same thing.
Waiting for Sungmin to wake up.
***
He still remember, the blood rushing out from Sungmin’s wounded chest, his hands that was covering the wound, trying not to let the blood out, Sungmin’s painful smile, and the kiss that he gave before he shut his eyes.
The tears that fell from Kyuhyun’s eyes wet his shirt, and his small, starting to cold hands were wiping the tears.
“Kyuhyun-ah, don’t cry.”
“Sungmin-shii...you called my name.”
“Don’t you think...that we should stop being so formal?” Kyuhyun was pulling out his phone and dialled 119, when Sungmin pushed the phone away from him, shaking his head.
“I’m happy to be like this with you. Don’t call them. Just hold me a little longer.” Panting, but he still managed to finish his words. And that made Kyuhyun cried even louder.
“I...really love you, Kyuhyun. I never thought that I could love someone like this, and I think, I could never love someone like this, ever again.” Kyuhyun looked into his eyes, and smiled. Painfully.
No, this couldn’t be it. Kyuhyun knew that he should not give up to this situation.
“And because of your love to me, I can’t let you go, just like that.” And again, he reached for his phone, and dialled the number that was already on the screen.
“Kyuhyun-ah...”
“Sungmin-ah, this is not a TV drama, where the heroes will let the heroines to die just like that. I’m a selfish person, and you’ll find me hateful when you know me better.” And he kissed the pale lips, with tears running down both cheeks.
***
Yoona is just a nurse who take care of you, Sungmin. She’s a nice girl, I know. And I shouldn’t used her like this, but it was all for you. And she was fine about it, when I asked her whether she’s okay with it or not.
I want to silence the mouth that kept asking me about my status. So we planned this. Don’t get me wrong. It’s not easy to find you in the last three years back then, thanks for waiting for me. So now, please open your eyes, and look at me, because I’m waiting for you.
***
The tall man came again, and Yoona was aware of his presence. She was smiling when she thought that she was helping the love between two men. Some of her friends, who knew about it, said that she was crazy if she doesn’t seduce Kyuhyun for herself, but she thought that was just stupid.
She never saw this kind of love before, and she was crying when listening to it. Kyuhyun was a good man, and she just hoped that she will get the chance to know Sungmin later.
Maybe she was being naive, but a love is a love, no matter it was a love between who. Sungmin loves Kyuhyun, Kyuhyun loves Sungmin, that’s all that they need to know. Everyone needs to know.
And she just wish, with crossing fingers everytime Kyuhyun came, that Sungmin will open his eyes, and smile again at his beloved.
But still, God didn’t grant her wish. Or Kyuhyun’s.
***
The woman was sitting at the side of the road, holding a bottle of alcohol in her hand. Sometimes she was smiling, other time she was laughing, but mostly, she was crying.
Hyomin didn’t remember, when she became so obsessed with Sungmin. Was it when the man saved her from the accident? Then he shouldn’t save her that time.
Or was it when Sungmin rejected her when she was asking him to be her boyfriend? Then he shouldn’t reject her. Yeah, it was at that time, that she thought, Sungmin was wasting his time, loving a man. A love story that could never be realized.
“I’m a woman that loves you, but you still chasing a man. How do you think I felt about it? What about my pride?? You’re in love with my brother, when I was clearly giving in to you!! You fool!!” hiccups were following her words.
Hyomin never intended in hurting Sungmin. She wanted to hurt Kyuhyun, not killing him or whatsoever. But she was so jealous about the kiss that she saw, that she didn’t care about who will be injured by her stupid action.
And when she read about Sungmin’s condition in the newspaper, she realized that she has done something stupid. Even if Sungmin survived, there’s no way she’ll be loved by him, or maybe not even forgiven by Kyuhyun.
“What have I done? I took my own brother’s happiness, when I was the one who wanted him to have that on his own...Kyuhyun-ah, mianhe. Noona loves you. But my love for Sungmin was blinding me.”
She started to walk across the dark street, when she saw a pair of light on her left.
And honking was heard, along with the sounds of crushing bones and flesh.
***
Everyone was wearing dark clothing, and sobs were heard from every corner. Hyomin’s smiling face was standing in front of the wall, with white roses around the frame. Hyori was crying in her husband’s chest, and Siwon was hugging Kyuhyun’s shoulders.
“I never thought that this will be the way we meet for the last time, Hyomin-ah.” Hyori said, as she was wiping the smiling picture. A few minutes later, she turned to Kyuhyun, and asked,
“Is this the end that you expected? For her to die because of your stupid love?”
“Noona!” Siwon was trying to back him up, when Kyuhyun knelt in front of the picture. “I never hate her. In fact, I love her. She was my sister after all. Just like you. If only she came to me and apologized, this will never happened. I didn’t hold any grudge against her, or you at all, noona.” And he hugged Hyori who was speechless with his words.
“I’m sorry, Kyuhyun-ah, I’m so sorry. If only I didn’t do all that, this thing...” and Kyuhyun hushed her quiet.
“Let bygone be bygone. It’s useless to speak about what has happened. All that we need right now is what is about to happen in the future.”
***
You see me in this black suit, Sungmin? I was at Hyomin’s funeral. She was hit by a truck last night. You must’ve been so relieved right now. No, Sungmin-ah. That’s not good.
Even though she was the one who made us suffer, she’s still my sister. So when you wake up, we have to go to her grave and give some respects.
I already know that your brother was the donor to my eyes, Sungmin. And I’ve met with his wife, and kids. The cute Seunggi and the adventurous Da Hae. How they wish to see their uncle again.
And I’m sorry to tell you this, that in the last three years you’ve been sleeping, my brother had fell in love with your sister-in-law, and they are preparing for their wedding right now. In just about two months from now.
I’ll be very busy, trying to help them with the wedding, and doing my jobs. And speaking of job, I’m sorry that I didn’t work in your large company. I wanted to start from below. I know, I know. Donghae was mad like you, too. But I managed to calm him down, and I wish that I can do the same to you.
And Yoona really want to have a chat with you, when I told her what a good speaker you were. And I wish for the same too. There’s so much to say to you, and so much to learn from you.
So wake up sooner, because I will be here for you. And will be waiting for you. Just like what you did for me before.
And for the 913th time since you’ve been sleeping, 1437.
Oh~maybe you forgot the meaning. I LOVE YOU FOREVER.
And a kiss for a goodnight sleep.
***
Kyuhyun kissed the cold, pale lips, and smiled. He will never give up on Sungmin, no matter in what. He turned and saw Yoona smiling at him, with a thumb up sign, and a mouthed ‘him-ne-ja’.
Today is the 913th day Sungmin has been in coma, a deep one. And he still believes that in anytime, his beloved could be awake.
But maybe, not today.
“Keep on fighting, my love. I’ll be here tomorrow, for the 914th day. Sleep as much as you can, but wake up before I die. That’s all that I’m wishing for right now. Sarang hae.” And he kissed Sungmin’s forehead.
And as soon as he left, Sungmin’s pinky finger moved, and a name was called.
“Kyuhyun...”
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Chapter 11