but love is gonna save us
I don’t like how I feel about you
Feeling wrong no matter what I do
Feeling hurt and bitter for what you don’t…
Feeling naked and vulnerable and transparent and oh so rapeable…
Stupid.
Everything I say is stupid
Everything I feel, no matter how real…
Needy, hungry, wanting more
But unable to ask, choking on the request, knowing I won’t receive.
Biting back the words,
Don’t want to seem even needier.
Don’t want to expose myself even more…
So vulnerable
It’s lonely lying like this
Pretending
But dangerous to open up
Waiting… waiting… waiting.
You want me to be open, to be confident
You’ll hurt me… you’ll kill me
It’s terrifying
Don’t hurt me, I can’t take it
Do you know what you’re asking of me?
Do you even care what you do to me?
Unable to communicate it to you, unable to say
Afraid to scare you away
Obsession, possession
Everything I am, Everything I know
Lying, crying, dying
Do you see through me?
Do you care to?
Not entirely
No, not possible
I’m not like that
Transparent, see-through, knowable
But you want me to be
Why? Why? Why?
You don’t answer
Why not, you ask.
BECAUSE!!
I want to be everything you want me to be, but I don’t want you to be disappointed.
I’m afraid of losing too much of me…
I’m afraid of finding me.
I’m afraid, still, of being left.
…don’t hurt me, please.
You told me not to worry and I said okay.
But fuck, I can’t control this hurt
These tears
These fears.
Don’t hurt me.
Go away
But, for god’s sake, don’t leave me
Don’t want to be naked and bare
But it’s too late
I’m proud
But so ashamed
Filthy, disgusting, needy.
I need you
Never leave me
But you won’t be here forever
Won’t commit… won’t stay
Why are you doing this to me?
Please just let me be
But I need more, addicted.
I need you
Love me forever
…you don’t need me, do you?
Feeling wrong no matter what I do
Feeling hurt and bitter for what you don’t…
Feeling naked and vulnerable and transparent and oh so rapeable…
Stupid.
Everything I say is stupid
Everything I feel, no matter how real…
Needy, hungry, wanting more
But unable to ask, choking on the request, knowing I won’t receive.
Biting back the words,
Don’t want to seem even needier.
Don’t want to expose myself even more…
So vulnerable
It’s lonely lying like this
Pretending
But dangerous to open up
Waiting… waiting… waiting.
You want me to be open, to be confident
You’ll hurt me… you’ll kill me
It’s terrifying
Don’t hurt me, I can’t take it
Do you know what you’re asking of me?
Do you even care what you do to me?
Unable to communicate it to you, unable to say
Afraid to scare you away
Obsession, possession
Everything I am, Everything I know
Lying, crying, dying
Do you see through me?
Do you care to?
Not entirely
No, not possible
I’m not like that
Transparent, see-through, knowable
But you want me to be
Why? Why? Why?
You don’t answer
Why not, you ask.
BECAUSE!!
I want to be everything you want me to be, but I don’t want you to be disappointed.
I’m afraid of losing too much of me…
I’m afraid of finding me.
I’m afraid, still, of being left.
…don’t hurt me, please.
You told me not to worry and I said okay.
But fuck, I can’t control this hurt
These tears
These fears.
Don’t hurt me.
Go away
But, for god’s sake, don’t leave me
Don’t want to be naked and bare
But it’s too late
I’m proud
But so ashamed
Filthy, disgusting, needy.
I need you
Never leave me
But you won’t be here forever
Won’t commit… won’t stay
Why are you doing this to me?
Please just let me be
But I need more, addicted.
I need you
Love me forever
…you don’t need me, do you?