Chinen's birthday fanfic
Title : When You Finally Love Me
Pairing : Okachii, one-sided Yamachii
Genre : angst, romance
Rating : pg-13
Okamoto Keito's POV
Maybe you can't hear because every time I want to talk, you're always hearing his voice.
Maybe you can't see because every time I want to show you, you're always staring at him.
Maybe you can't feel because every time I want to touch you, you're always running; reaching for him.
Maybe you don't know because when I want to tell you, you were crying because of him.
Because of him...
On the day I met you, there was nothing special I could feel.
I was not the person in the spotlight.
I was just an untalented back-dancer with a famous father.
When the old man Johnny offered me to join his new group,
I thought that I had better not to receive the job and give it to another envious junior.
However, seeing the happy face my dad wore for me, I just couldn’t stand it.
So, although the whole Jimusho seemed to hate me, I didn't care; including about you.
The first time we talked, uneasiness and discomfort were clearly shown from you.
I couldn’t help to feel discriminated.
But then I mentioned about something I can't remember,
and you began to chatted friendlier.
You told me that you had always watched me before we debuted together.
You said I looked like a person from a different world, too cool for my own good,
but soon you realized that that was just because I was too shy to interact with other people.
Maybe that was when I planted my crush on you.
We grew our friendship in an express way.
When I found you cling onto my arms and drag me to the shopping mall or when you were begging to sit on my laps, my heart burns.
I knew that I've fell deeply in love with you.
People say that there are always the good side and the bad side of everything.
I'm glad that I finally can enjoy the moments in the Jimusho, because of you.
And because of you, I clenched my fists every time I see you talking to him.
It was painful inside.
And then, people say that if you really love someone, you should be able to do anything
to make that person happy, even if you have to lose that person.
I thought that's bullshit.
When you told me that you want to confess to him, half of my soul was gone.
But when you came to my house that night, with tears all over your face,
I can finally understand the meaning of those words…
Even if I have to lose you.
It has been 5 months since he rejected you.
I guess you're not the only one because he is now the most popular teenager in Japan.
Sometimes when we walk together, you'll stare blankly at nothing and space out.
I want to wake you, but I'm afraid that you'll break into pieces that I can no longer hold anymore.
We've been together for 2 months but you still can't realize my feelings for you.
Until that day came.
The last thing I managed to remember is your crying face.
You caressed my hair and my head was on your lap.
You hugged me so tight I can't feel my blood, dripping onto the snow.
The white snow that was surrounding us changed its color into red as
you kissed me gently, softly…
I could barely feel anything but the saltiness of your tears.
"Don't die!! Don't die, Keito, don't you dare do that... "
I couldn't speak, my body was going numb. I wanted to tell you that I'll never do that.
"... Keito, wake up!!"
I felt a snowdrop in my face, "I’m sorry…"
and then, everything went black.
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Chinen Yuuri's POV
I know you think that I’m just using you to forget about him.
I have to admit that that was true.
To see you fall down as the car hit your body, I was dying with you.
The moment I kissed you, I regretted just how heartless I was.
Only realized how important you are to me when you have no longer time to know.
When I said I would die if you leave, I truly mean it.
Please, Keito, I’m sorry…
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Yamada Ryosuke’s POV
When I saw him looking at me while walking beside you, I felt guilty.
For you and him.
I apologized, but you replied with a smile, "Nah, it’s Ok!" you said.
I looked at your eyes and sadness was the only thing I could see.
It’s not Ok.
I rushed to the hospital, only to see him kneeling down beside your unmoving body.
He was holding your hand, clenching it before a teardrop fell down, wetting both your hand and his.
You can’t leave me like this… Don’t do this to me.
I love you, Keito, I love you…
See, Keito. Open your eyes wide and see.
See, and only then you can say ‘It’s Ok’.
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I can smell the scent of the flowers he is putting into the vase.
Your hands clinging to his shoulders as you hug him from behind, smiling and healthy.
The boys I used to know have now gone.
Replacing them is another two, with unwavering happiness exhibited in their eyes.
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This is actually a remix version of my okachii fanfic ^^,
so maybe some of you are having a deja vu while reading this XD
Pairing : Okachii, one-sided Yamachii
Genre : angst, romance
Rating : pg-13
Okamoto Keito's POV
Maybe you can't hear because every time I want to talk, you're always hearing his voice.
Maybe you can't see because every time I want to show you, you're always staring at him.
Maybe you can't feel because every time I want to touch you, you're always running; reaching for him.
Maybe you don't know because when I want to tell you, you were crying because of him.
Because of him...
On the day I met you, there was nothing special I could feel.
I was not the person in the spotlight.
I was just an untalented back-dancer with a famous father.
When the old man Johnny offered me to join his new group,
I thought that I had better not to receive the job and give it to another envious junior.
However, seeing the happy face my dad wore for me, I just couldn’t stand it.
So, although the whole Jimusho seemed to hate me, I didn't care; including about you.
The first time we talked, uneasiness and discomfort were clearly shown from you.
I couldn’t help to feel discriminated.
But then I mentioned about something I can't remember,
and you began to chatted friendlier.
You told me that you had always watched me before we debuted together.
You said I looked like a person from a different world, too cool for my own good,
but soon you realized that that was just because I was too shy to interact with other people.
Maybe that was when I planted my crush on you.
We grew our friendship in an express way.
When I found you cling onto my arms and drag me to the shopping mall or when you were begging to sit on my laps, my heart burns.
I knew that I've fell deeply in love with you.
People say that there are always the good side and the bad side of everything.
I'm glad that I finally can enjoy the moments in the Jimusho, because of you.
And because of you, I clenched my fists every time I see you talking to him.
It was painful inside.
And then, people say that if you really love someone, you should be able to do anything
to make that person happy, even if you have to lose that person.
I thought that's bullshit.
When you told me that you want to confess to him, half of my soul was gone.
But when you came to my house that night, with tears all over your face,
I can finally understand the meaning of those words…
Even if I have to lose you.
It has been 5 months since he rejected you.
I guess you're not the only one because he is now the most popular teenager in Japan.
Sometimes when we walk together, you'll stare blankly at nothing and space out.
I want to wake you, but I'm afraid that you'll break into pieces that I can no longer hold anymore.
We've been together for 2 months but you still can't realize my feelings for you.
Until that day came.
The last thing I managed to remember is your crying face.
You caressed my hair and my head was on your lap.
You hugged me so tight I can't feel my blood, dripping onto the snow.
The white snow that was surrounding us changed its color into red as
you kissed me gently, softly…
I could barely feel anything but the saltiness of your tears.
"Don't die!! Don't die, Keito, don't you dare do that... "
I couldn't speak, my body was going numb. I wanted to tell you that I'll never do that.
"... Keito, wake up!!"
I felt a snowdrop in my face, "I’m sorry…"
and then, everything went black.
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Chinen Yuuri's POV
I know you think that I’m just using you to forget about him.
I have to admit that that was true.
To see you fall down as the car hit your body, I was dying with you.
The moment I kissed you, I regretted just how heartless I was.
Only realized how important you are to me when you have no longer time to know.
When I said I would die if you leave, I truly mean it.
Please, Keito, I’m sorry…
---------------------------------------------------------------
Yamada Ryosuke’s POV
When I saw him looking at me while walking beside you, I felt guilty.
For you and him.
I apologized, but you replied with a smile, "Nah, it’s Ok!" you said.
I looked at your eyes and sadness was the only thing I could see.
It’s not Ok.
I rushed to the hospital, only to see him kneeling down beside your unmoving body.
He was holding your hand, clenching it before a teardrop fell down, wetting both your hand and his.
You can’t leave me like this… Don’t do this to me.
I love you, Keito, I love you…
See, Keito. Open your eyes wide and see.
See, and only then you can say ‘It’s Ok’.
----------------------------------------------------
I can smell the scent of the flowers he is putting into the vase.
Your hands clinging to his shoulders as you hug him from behind, smiling and healthy.
The boys I used to know have now gone.
Replacing them is another two, with unwavering happiness exhibited in their eyes.
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This is actually a remix version of my okachii fanfic ^^,
so maybe some of you are having a deja vu while reading this XD