This smile is fake. The "I'm fines" aren't real. The laughs are forced. The good times we had are now gone. The times that are to follow will never top what the past was. The times in the past will never be better than the ones the future has to bring. I miss the past and what it was, what it could have been. I miss being happy.

Let's see here. Christmas is one of the most boring holidays ever, everything is closed and everyone is with their families, and to top it off it is raining. Didn't get anything but a whole bunch of money for X-mas, and I didn't get the thing I wanted the most. I hope 2004 is better than 2003, but 2003 was a pretty good year.

This weekend was alright, Friday night I went to the MAnchester Mall with Felicia and Nick.. The whole time Nick was pretty drunk, and ended up stealing a bottle of Jack from the Liquor Store. Saturday was a day filled with 9 hours of work then 3.5 hours of Lord of The Rings. Sunday I got grounded from my car until Friday because the school sent ( Read more... )

I got suspended form school today, meaning I'm not going to school on Monday. The vice principal is calling my house at 5:00 and I will hopefully be in Manchester by then, its going to be a sucky vacation. Leave some good comments to come back to.

Why do you have to rub it in so hard, why make me hurt so much? All I am is asking for is to try one more time, just one more time. You don't know what you haven't done, you may only think you do. I just wish one all those stars that you will, you told me not to give up on what I wish for, don't let me down.

One is the lonliest number that you'll ever do ( Read more... )

Weekend ( Read more... )

Of everything we have been threw and everything each of us has done, you have been the one always there time after time. You have been the one to make me happy again, no one else but you.

I love you, and nothing has changed that, and there is nothing that could.

You need to try and see where I'm coming from on this. I have sat here and tried to understand you, I have no idea what you want anymore. You tell me because every time I guess it makes things worse. Fuck you all and good- night.

Lost and confused, I need to get my compass and map. I'm still waiting for that moment to come again.

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