harumph

[bentbender]

It affects me less and less - almost doesn't occur to me anymore at all... but when it does, it still affects me in the same tragic ways as it did as it was happening. As I think back, I can't help but think that I was right at the time: I'd rather have been stuck with an inanimate predicament than these inaccurate memories.

Comments

[morimur]

Check out Uber Gewissheit (aka On Certainty) by Ludwig Wittgenstein. I think he has some interesting ideas on "inaccurate memories" and what it means to be certain.

I'd also recommend WG Sebald's Vertigo where he explores the nature of memory and recollection. It is full of such gems as: "The more images I gathered from the past ... the more unlikely it seemed to me that the past had actually happened in this or that way, for nothing about it could be called normal: most of it was absurd, and if not absurd, then appalling."

[bentbender]

wow, yes, exactly... more towards that.

actually a thought inspired by (mm-hmm) cree summer's still heart "even as blood and bone I can tolerate a still heart, but I can't stand being alone" and four or so years worth of embitterment.

you read me well, Mr. Mur. :)

Greetings

[caliburnpdx]

Your profile comes up relatively often in searches as we have a few common things listed, so I've been reading your past entries for the last week or two. You are interesting so I added you to keep up. Let me know if you'd rather I didn't.

There isn't much to see in my journal. I mostly surf around and read and comment in other journals, but rarely post in my own. When I do it's usually something superficial and I delete old posts. I find other people more interesting to read than myself to write about.

Cheers. :-)

Re: Greetings

[bentbender]

i find the communicative nature of this introduction to be extremely reassuring. :) Thank you for your props! There are more places to observe my unwieldy behavior - gutterpunkfaggot.stumbleupon.com is my 'stumble blog' - reviews of interesting websites and pics and stuff... I've also been trying to make my myspace happen, but alas it is a bitch. but yeah - myspace.com/bentbender is mostly me. :)
Again, thanks for being so verbose. I often wonder who these people are and what they must think. I don't mind a bit, it's what it's here for!